TAKE ME OUT
so it's 1230am and i have to wake up in 4.5 hours to go up to Purdue for this Day on Campus thing. i can't go to sleep for anything. probably because i go to sleep at 3 am every night and then wake up at 12, and because there are just a lot of things on my mind. i don't really want to have to get up tomorrow morning and undergo hours and hours of testing. i talked to my roommate today and she said she didnt even have to take the math test, they just put her directly into calculus. i already passed this calculus readiness thingy that they made me take online, so hopefully i'm in. i've already taken calculus already. piece of cake.
something that i didn't think would make me sad, is kind of getting to me. one of my best friends, hilary is leaving for this 6 week biking trip across america(georgia to LA)a week from tomorrow, well i guess today since its midnight. it's basically like she's leaving for college because when she gets back, it'll be about time for me to go to Purdue. boo. she almost didn't go on it, but i think she has finally decided that she should just go. i agree it will be a good experience, but she's not going to be hanging out with all of us before we go away. but, i'll probably go and visit her up at her lakehouse in michigan the week before purdue begins.
it's funny really. i used to be so excited about college. and now, i'm not really. i'm sure i'll get excited when im actually there august 14, but right now i'm not all gung ho about it like i was a couple months ago. although, i am really glad to get away from my parents. i guess i just realized a couple of things...
the relationship between my brother and i will be different. i mean, he's 10 and i am 18. i will graduate college and he will still be in high school. there is already such a strain on our relationship because of our age difference. it's hard to relate i guess. but now that i'm going away, it will be even more strained i feel. you can't say that distance doesn't harm a relationship, BECAUSE IT DOES. whoever said that "distance makes the heart grow fonder" has no idea what they are talking about. it's really frustrating and our relationship is very important to me. i also realized, well it's not a recent realization, that my best friend and i are going to be going to rival schools. i know we'll still talk a lot and everything because that's just how we are. no matter what, i know she's always there. but things just won't be the same you know? maybe it will, who knows. i guess i've just been very contemplative lately about everything. some of my other friends are going even FARTHER away for school, too. i'm sure i'll meet some dandy people at purdue. i guess i should just not worry about things that are not in my control, you know, and be the laid back girl i am.
i'm not ALL sad these days though, do not worry folks. i'm actually very happy, just facing some inner turmoil about relationships. maybe i just think too much about things. i feel like angela on my so-called life. maybe that's why i love that show so much. i guess i shouldn't say that distance ruins all relationships, because jay and i have still remained very good friends despite him living in a different state. but we talk on the phone a lot, so it doesn't feel like he's so far away.
today i was thinking a lot about the trip i went on last summer in massachusetts and i got this really bad urge to go on another trip. i am considering going on the one to alaska. who knows. i know it couldn't top the one i went on last year and the whole time i'd be comparing the two. those kids were so amazing and i wish we could all be living in the same house again. although, there was a lot of drama, particularly because of ben and i. but a little drama never hurt anybody. :P ooh la la. (remember jules?!)
i'm glad that Kyle and i are becoming a lot better friends. things kind of got off to a rocky start, and then that whole thing at the Yellowcard concert. wow. but at least that time wasn't my fault.
on a lighter note, my dog was drunk today! ahahhahaha. well, sort of. it was stormin like crazy outside today, like it usually does up here in indiana, and my dog goes psycho during storms. so the doc gave us this tranquilizer to administer to her when it storms to calm her down. she was walking around like a drunk, running into walls, slipping everywhere. it was hilarious. wow. it's kind of mean, but i'm up for a good laugh.
anywho, i best try to get some shut-eye. i am NOT pulling another all-nighter. that ruined my life. huahhahah. and this was the longest update ever. haha no one is going to be able to pay attention long enough to even read it. but at least all the cards are out on the table.
:P
something that i didn't think would make me sad, is kind of getting to me. one of my best friends, hilary is leaving for this 6 week biking trip across america(georgia to LA)a week from tomorrow, well i guess today since its midnight. it's basically like she's leaving for college because when she gets back, it'll be about time for me to go to Purdue. boo. she almost didn't go on it, but i think she has finally decided that she should just go. i agree it will be a good experience, but she's not going to be hanging out with all of us before we go away. but, i'll probably go and visit her up at her lakehouse in michigan the week before purdue begins.
it's funny really. i used to be so excited about college. and now, i'm not really. i'm sure i'll get excited when im actually there august 14, but right now i'm not all gung ho about it like i was a couple months ago. although, i am really glad to get away from my parents. i guess i just realized a couple of things...
the relationship between my brother and i will be different. i mean, he's 10 and i am 18. i will graduate college and he will still be in high school. there is already such a strain on our relationship because of our age difference. it's hard to relate i guess. but now that i'm going away, it will be even more strained i feel. you can't say that distance doesn't harm a relationship, BECAUSE IT DOES. whoever said that "distance makes the heart grow fonder" has no idea what they are talking about. it's really frustrating and our relationship is very important to me. i also realized, well it's not a recent realization, that my best friend and i are going to be going to rival schools. i know we'll still talk a lot and everything because that's just how we are. no matter what, i know she's always there. but things just won't be the same you know? maybe it will, who knows. i guess i've just been very contemplative lately about everything. some of my other friends are going even FARTHER away for school, too. i'm sure i'll meet some dandy people at purdue. i guess i should just not worry about things that are not in my control, you know, and be the laid back girl i am.
i'm not ALL sad these days though, do not worry folks. i'm actually very happy, just facing some inner turmoil about relationships. maybe i just think too much about things. i feel like angela on my so-called life. maybe that's why i love that show so much. i guess i shouldn't say that distance ruins all relationships, because jay and i have still remained very good friends despite him living in a different state. but we talk on the phone a lot, so it doesn't feel like he's so far away.
today i was thinking a lot about the trip i went on last summer in massachusetts and i got this really bad urge to go on another trip. i am considering going on the one to alaska. who knows. i know it couldn't top the one i went on last year and the whole time i'd be comparing the two. those kids were so amazing and i wish we could all be living in the same house again. although, there was a lot of drama, particularly because of ben and i. but a little drama never hurt anybody. :P ooh la la. (remember jules?!)
i'm glad that Kyle and i are becoming a lot better friends. things kind of got off to a rocky start, and then that whole thing at the Yellowcard concert. wow. but at least that time wasn't my fault.
on a lighter note, my dog was drunk today! ahahhahaha. well, sort of. it was stormin like crazy outside today, like it usually does up here in indiana, and my dog goes psycho during storms. so the doc gave us this tranquilizer to administer to her when it storms to calm her down. she was walking around like a drunk, running into walls, slipping everywhere. it was hilarious. wow. it's kind of mean, but i'm up for a good laugh.
anywho, i best try to get some shut-eye. i am NOT pulling another all-nighter. that ruined my life. huahhahah. and this was the longest update ever. haha no one is going to be able to pay attention long enough to even read it. but at least all the cards are out on the table.
:P