life...
well, things with Allan are still drama. Last night @ work we didn't speak AT ALL and I think he told ppl that I like him but I'm all jealous b/c of the whore, Debbie. Because I'm getting very weird looks lately. So I pretty much isolate myself and spend all my breaks chillin' with the kewlest person I know, ME! lol. At least I don't start drama with myself. Er, well maybe I do. I mean this is all pretty much my fault b/c I like him.
I'm just worried. I don't really want to risk my heart for someone who's already making me feel crappy and we haven't even dated yet. In fact I don't think the date is even going to happen. He was supposed to call me and let me know when but he hasn't even mentioned it or called me. I think he's over it. Whatever "it" was. lol.
I really want to just put myself out there and take a risk by asking him to go do something tomorrow. But... I don't want to seem like I'm in love with him or anything. lol. GAH!
I called him for thanksgiving, just to say hey and he didn't seem very thrilled. lol.
If I did take the risk and ask him then what happens when we go back to work and he ignores me again for Debbie??? It really does hurt for someone to do that. I feel like I'm not good enough... for anyone. If I let it go now before I invest anymore feelings into it I'll be less hurt later. But do I really want to risk letting him walk away?
I AM SOOOOOOOOO CONFUSED!!!
I'm just worried. I don't really want to risk my heart for someone who's already making me feel crappy and we haven't even dated yet. In fact I don't think the date is even going to happen. He was supposed to call me and let me know when but he hasn't even mentioned it or called me. I think he's over it. Whatever "it" was. lol.
I really want to just put myself out there and take a risk by asking him to go do something tomorrow. But... I don't want to seem like I'm in love with him or anything. lol. GAH!
I called him for thanksgiving, just to say hey and he didn't seem very thrilled. lol.
If I did take the risk and ask him then what happens when we go back to work and he ignores me again for Debbie??? It really does hurt for someone to do that. I feel like I'm not good enough... for anyone. If I let it go now before I invest anymore feelings into it I'll be less hurt later. But do I really want to risk letting him walk away?
I AM SOOOOOOOOO CONFUSED!!!