Oye vey, Parker...
Welp,
V Day..
Um, my laptop is now one year old. Happy birthday!! Besides that...I went out on a road trip with my best friend Sarah last night. It was a two day trip in that we left Dallas at 5pm, got to Lake Charles, LA at 12am. Then we left back for Dallas at 2pm the next day. I was nice to get out on the road and escape alittle bit of hell. But now I'm here again. I'm dreadingt these next two days, I have to work doubles aka both my jobs which means I'll have an hour to myself in just two days. BLEH! Besides that, here's about V Day!
I woke up early and went to Kinko's where I went and printed out Parker's cd sleeve and stuff. I know giving him the gift I'd made a month ago probably wasn't smart, but I really wanted him to have it, I worked hard on it! Then I went to school and wore what I had planned on wearing on the date he said we'd go on. We met up for lunch and then did our homework before class. The entire time, I don't know why, I just wanted to throw up. My stomach was going insane and I was just so nervous to be around him. When class started, I put my hair down to where he couldn't see me and let the tears fall that I was trying my fucking hardest to hold in for those two hours that we were hanging out.
Afterwards, I drove him to his car and this is where I did it: I reached in my purse and said
"I know you're not my boyfriend anymore, but I really wanted you to have this" I said and handed it over. He said "Oh my god! This looks so cool!" Then he asked me for a hug and I just let the river flow. I couldn't hide it anymore. As he was getting out he said thanks and I told him I loved him. Then I plugged in my Zen and started listening to Lily Allen. I cried the entire drive to work, but I was so happy that I didn't see his car behind me. That meant he had stopped to look at it. Me being the stupid ass that I am, fantasized that when I got out of work, he'd be there waiting for me to tell me how sweet it was and that he wanted to be with me again. I reminded myself all night that it wouldn't happen, yet when I got out of the store, I was still dissapoined.
Kal stopped by to get his check! Yay! Then Ray came by a bit later. I gave them both a High school musical card and a bag of candy. It was good to see my guyfriends there. About an hour later, the door opened and I said my BB hello only to see Parker's mom smiling at me. I gave her a baggy of candy too while she was on the phone as I rung her up. When I was telling her the due dates, my voice again started to crack, how could I not cry infront of the dumper's mother? But awesomely enough, the second she left, my friend came back in with his girlfriend. He handed me a box of chocolates and a huge card that he painted with a sweet little message inside. :) I'm glad to know that I have friends in my life that I can count on to cheer me up when I'm down.
After work, I drove over to a school and skateboarded in their parkinglot for awhile. Part of me was hoping he'd show up there too, as I had told him I would be there. Now here I sit in my room. Trying hard to ignore this annoying memory of alone again.
Goddamnit, I love Parker Amos.
V Day..
Um, my laptop is now one year old. Happy birthday!! Besides that...I went out on a road trip with my best friend Sarah last night. It was a two day trip in that we left Dallas at 5pm, got to Lake Charles, LA at 12am. Then we left back for Dallas at 2pm the next day. I was nice to get out on the road and escape alittle bit of hell. But now I'm here again. I'm dreadingt these next two days, I have to work doubles aka both my jobs which means I'll have an hour to myself in just two days. BLEH! Besides that, here's about V Day!
I woke up early and went to Kinko's where I went and printed out Parker's cd sleeve and stuff. I know giving him the gift I'd made a month ago probably wasn't smart, but I really wanted him to have it, I worked hard on it! Then I went to school and wore what I had planned on wearing on the date he said we'd go on. We met up for lunch and then did our homework before class. The entire time, I don't know why, I just wanted to throw up. My stomach was going insane and I was just so nervous to be around him. When class started, I put my hair down to where he couldn't see me and let the tears fall that I was trying my fucking hardest to hold in for those two hours that we were hanging out.
Afterwards, I drove him to his car and this is where I did it: I reached in my purse and said
"I know you're not my boyfriend anymore, but I really wanted you to have this" I said and handed it over. He said "Oh my god! This looks so cool!" Then he asked me for a hug and I just let the river flow. I couldn't hide it anymore. As he was getting out he said thanks and I told him I loved him. Then I plugged in my Zen and started listening to Lily Allen. I cried the entire drive to work, but I was so happy that I didn't see his car behind me. That meant he had stopped to look at it. Me being the stupid ass that I am, fantasized that when I got out of work, he'd be there waiting for me to tell me how sweet it was and that he wanted to be with me again. I reminded myself all night that it wouldn't happen, yet when I got out of the store, I was still dissapoined.
Kal stopped by to get his check! Yay! Then Ray came by a bit later. I gave them both a High school musical card and a bag of candy. It was good to see my guyfriends there. About an hour later, the door opened and I said my BB hello only to see Parker's mom smiling at me. I gave her a baggy of candy too while she was on the phone as I rung her up. When I was telling her the due dates, my voice again started to crack, how could I not cry infront of the dumper's mother? But awesomely enough, the second she left, my friend came back in with his girlfriend. He handed me a box of chocolates and a huge card that he painted with a sweet little message inside. :) I'm glad to know that I have friends in my life that I can count on to cheer me up when I'm down.
After work, I drove over to a school and skateboarded in their parkinglot for awhile. Part of me was hoping he'd show up there too, as I had told him I would be there. Now here I sit in my room. Trying hard to ignore this annoying memory of alone again.
Goddamnit, I love Parker Amos.