And the world crumbles..
So remember that guy I had in for a job in the family business? The guy who was gonna have his interview in 4 days? The guy who was gonna make a whole lot of money with this job, and bring the family business alot of money as well, and me some much needed $2,000? GUESS WHAT? He backed out. Got a job right before his interview. And all I can do is smile and grin at my luck.
. Paid off all medical bills with my college fund, more suddenly appear out of nowhere.
. Business goes through hard times and most of it's money is being used to pay moms rent and ours.
. Sold my scooter, didn't get any money.
. Manage to pay half of rent and still be late, plus paying the rest with $75 on top.
. Using college fund to pay for rent, and to pay for electric bill.
. Being told that what I want to go to college for is stupid and will get me no where.
. Justin hours being cut.
. Justin losing his job.
. Applied for 30 jobs, 1 got an interview and didn't want me, 2 was a scam, and 3 was a scam.
. And now this.
And all thats not even the half of it, thats just what managed to happen in the last month and a half. I so stressed out that I feel sick almost all the time, my ocd is being horriable and I feel miserable. I keep trying to be happy and looking on the bright side, but then it's like something smacks me in the face when I do. And everyone keeps yelling at me, giving me threats like getting rid of the family business if I don't get a job. I just don't know what to do anymore..
I had a job phone interview today, for some call center, but he didn't want to do calls, he wanted me to do some ads report thing. He was impressed that I knew how to do searched through google and yahoo, but everything else he seemed really unhappy with, like that most my customer service skills where not through my Administrative job. He wants me to come in and do testing for 4 hours, but idk if I will pass, he wants someone with excellent grammer, which out of all my writing my skills is my worse. Plus it's full-time, and he didn't like that I wanted part-time because I still work anouther job. And now I just feel like a failure.
Plus I want to work in the family business, I love it, and I know someday it will bring alot of money. I want a part-time job, and I want to keep working in the businness. I don't want to work 6am-6pm doing something I act like I know how to do but I really don't. Something that will get me nowhere. But I have too, thats how life is.
Idk where my lifes heading anymore, I have writers block on so much, and I would like it if for once and I some encouragement instead of people threatening to find a job (because applying for whatever I can find every single day isn't trying to find a job) or that my choice of college and is stupid and useless.
I am so SO sick of crying everyday. And yes, this IS feeling sorry for myself I guess, but it's not even that anymore. I have fallen into something much much worse and no one even knows it..
And to top it off, I spent all of last night wating for my boss to txt or at least IM me with the answer to a stupid security question, and she never got back and did my job herself. So if the company hires someone, I get nothing, no $2,000, nothing. And I deserve that money, I worked so hard for it. -Sigh- Oh well, just anouther smack in the face I guess..