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I dont even really remember today, it is such a blur. Im not sure why I was so out of it today. I had 3 doc appointment today. 1st one the doctor called in sick and i wasnt notified the second one was only like 20 mins with my T i think at leaste. From what I can remember she was a tad late getting started adn I was out of there at 9:37. Its funny I rremmeber bthe clock adn her askin me if I was ok today adn me barely able to speak,, I couldnt even really coordinate my words together. She kept askin me if I had ODed last night. And why I was so out of it. its the deoression its gotta be. I hate when i get liek this. At leaste she has a clue on how severe it really is it litterally imobilizes me. I was like a studdering child today. It was horrid.
Cant even remember the last time that I cut. Lost track, from the wounds it looks like maybe 6 days ago.
Kauri flies in tomorrow morning going to airport to pick her up, I think she leaves around the 10th although Im not sure. this should be interesting.
Im alone. No matter if Im around peopel I dont feel accepted I never will.
Called the med guy and set an appointment date, see if I can get the max dose of some AD, hopefully effexor, for reasons that I have previosuly stated.
Ill probly end up back in the hos soon though so that plan will be screwes
Cant even remember the last time that I cut. Lost track, from the wounds it looks like maybe 6 days ago.
Kauri flies in tomorrow morning going to airport to pick her up, I think she leaves around the 10th although Im not sure. this should be interesting.
Im alone. No matter if Im around peopel I dont feel accepted I never will.
Called the med guy and set an appointment date, see if I can get the max dose of some AD, hopefully effexor, for reasons that I have previosuly stated.
Ill probly end up back in the hos soon though so that plan will be screwes