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[falllenshadows]

I realise what this disease has taken from me know, my life, my will to live, my pride, my faith, y self confidence, my smooth skin, everything that could be deemed as a quality has been fucked with or taken away and destroyed by this.      Ive been fighting it now though, its a struggle it really is.  I have a T meeting next monday morning, real

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[falsefeelings]

I fear that the only way I may be happy is if I move on to the afterlife. But we will see wont we?

no, you wont see.
XxX

[falllenshadows]

Why not?

[let_blood_flow]

You can get better I know you can, I loved your little poem, I love all your thigs you write and put on here, just as long as you have hope you can get better you will you know! *hugs* xxxxx

[falllenshadows]

hope really is all I have anymore

[forgettinggrace]

Hold on to what hope you have.

Meds really can help. It just takes time to find the right ones. Sometimes I'll suggest things to my psychiatrist and she'll tell me why or why not it's a good or bad idea to try that med. I research meds a lot on my own and have come to understand a psychopharmocology crap that the doctors won't explain to you. I've learned which components of the meds I respond to and that lets me know which meds I should suggest to my pdoc. I know what action in the brain, and which chemicals in the brain need the most help after researching everything I've been on.

And if you every reach the point of considering ECT, just talk to me. I've been through 2 rounds of it and now I found a med that really helps my depression, plus I take a few others, but I'm not on very many meds.

my aim sn is: AngoraTears
email: forgetting_grace@yahoo.com

[falllenshadows]

ECT sort of scares em a bit, they have not even mentioned it as a possibility to me

[melancholy86]

I know how you feel about the psychiatrist crap. I wrote a little poem about it... As far as meds go though, it took me a couple years to find the right mix and i've been told that the most discouraging thing about taking meds is finding the right ones in the right dosage to be compatible with your unique chemical balances

[opticonneedlez]

atleast theres hope...that's the main thing that will help you.

and i agree wif you and the children. it's scary to see that society is trying to mask children wif drugs...i see 6 year olds on paxil, prozac and ritalin just fer being normal energetic kids wif sparce bad days...it's sad really... they should just make every pill have the name "NUMB" cause thats what it's doing to these childrens creativity...from a right early age...