Naging thoughts
I sit sometimes and i think about my life so far but recently i cant stop thinking of my friends from school. And others i knew at the time. I always promised we would be friends and one guy i promised i would always be there for him. Sometimes i feel bad that i dont talk to any1. i know that we have gone in different directions but its not that hard to keep in touch i miss the long hours i used to sit online and chat to luke after school i miss the hours i spent with chris and rooney talking about nuthin or arguin over which x-men was the best one. I know things change as you get older and i know that some people in your life are only aquantences. What bothers me is when i do eventually bump in to one of them in the street they all seem to keep in touch or talk sometimes but not one ever talks to me was i that horrible to all of them that they all dislike me coz from what i remember most of the time things were good and when they werent we always sorted it out or is it that i mattered less to any of them then others people i trusted and thought were great friends really didnt care, Now that i dont believe i havent made every effort i could to keep in touch but sometimes i at least try and not one will even give a simple hello. i am sorry for all things that i may have done and if i hurt them in anyway. I think its coz i releyed on them all so much that i miss them and at the moment there are not many people i can rely. I wonder sometimes if that is because of the many times i was have been hurt and if maybe i have become distrusting. but life goes on and it saddens me to know that these people that i felt so strongly for and cared for at a time in my life people that i thought would always be around even if it was at least by email were just extras in a show there for one season and gone the next with no explination. I guess im just tryin to say i miss them and recently i cant stop thinking bout 2 imperticular luke n mark and i dont know why i just dont unerstand it i thought talking to them online finding out how they are n what there up to would help but neather of them want to talk.