| | slowly losing it | |
hey sorry i haven't writen anything in like two weeks or something like that. well i went to Longisland, New York for 4th of July. well we were there for five days not just july 4th lol. but anyways, one of are close family friends Joe Andrews, my godfathers brother, died the Tuesday we before 4th july...i've never been to a funeral before cause i'm just not one of those people that likes them much and plus my parents have never really wanted me to go to one, it was one of the worst things EVER...just seeing soo many people broken up about a person...people i know, don't know, love...i don't think i'll ever go to one again if i don't have to.. ='(...
well by the time that i came back from Longisland i had heard that the gang was all talking again and that everyone was cool..guess not... but, on that monday i went to the movies with kelly since she told me that crystal was going and i thought that maybe i should talk to her and get everything on the same page... well i did and i'm happy i did i don't wanna waste another summer being mad at her, it's soo stupid..i got to talk to josh too! that was cool..josh n' crystal look soo cute together.! (*wishes i had what they had*)
later on that week i don't know when..i got in a fight thingy with lauren/brielle..which honestly theres some things that kinda confused me about it and why it took that long to get mad at me but AnYwAyS...on thursday (i think) i went to the pool with kelly and crystal and then later on that night i went over to alexs for a little got to see dave and dom haven't seen them in Ever soo that was cool...on friday me and kristen saw the new "flick" (lol) , Sleepover, very funi/cute movie..after that i went back to her house and started talking about friends and crap, oh yay! *tries kills self*(but it didn't work well)...
...well then on saturday we were talking about dye are hair some soo she thought that it would be a good idea to ask crystal to come over my house with us cause she wanted to dye hair too. soo kristen called up crystal and now everything between the two of them is better now :) ..now that Thats fixed.. crystal didn't dye her hair or anything though cause her mom wasn't in a good mode that day..not kwel.. soo kristen staied over and crystal left around 11 and soo me and kristen finely desided around...oh..12:15 that it would be a good idea to dye are hair now lol. soo we went upstairs and you knowing me i had her over the night that my uncle brian and cusin ian were here lol..soo we're all trying to be really quiet while we're dying are hair...us..shhh..cute. lol it came out coolness.. after that though i was totaly whipped, i haven't really slept well lately.....well thats pretty much the shit of my life up until a few hours ago oh yeah and i think that mt guitar teach hates me lol..or kristen..or both lol...
...well as i said "until a few hours ago" well right after guitar kristen told me something that an "old someone" said to her a while back or something.. i don't know when but now it's got me thinking soo bad..my heads everywhere..and i don't like this..just when i start to beleave nothing could get better then are friendship Everything turns back time again.in the sence of feelings..it just makes we wanna say the things that i could never say..and this is most likely the L0West thing i've ever said, oddly enough since i'm ignorent, selfish, shallow, and things like that, (honestly thats what i think of myself right now not what other people have said they think of me)that.. i wish the worst of them just soo i can be happy :? :/ :( ....i hate this shit..
well..i'll right back later on.. it wont be another two weeks or something like that i promise.....
laters.. stephi*