Do you know what its like to live in a place that sucks?
It seems as though sometimes, people just want to see you fail. They want to see you squirm, falter under pressure, put you under a magnifying glass and burn your antlers off. These feelings always make thier presense felt just while nothing can go wrong.
Its hard to manage your time as a senior with the world ahead of you. Theres a job to balance, schoolwork to constantly get in the way, whichever sport or outside of school activity there is that you do, and who can forget the parents that ruin your life on a daily basis. Yes, this is teenage life, and you all know what im talking about.
With the college nonsense just about over, my parents are STILL bugging me to look a other schools, making sure i made the right choice, making sure everything is alright, which place do i want to go to how many scholarships did you fill out. Well i have a question, how many scholarships and job applications do i have to fill out in order to make you shut the hell up?
I see that window of time that I used to balance my life out in slowly getting smaller. Well not so much slowly, more like rather quickly. YMCA asked me to get working papers which must mean i got a job. So thats the after school life, out the window. no more DDR sessions and no more random mall trips or movie watching or the occasional trips to the farm because i have to become "responsible and work a shitty job that pays terrible just so i can see what the REAL WORLD is like." You can take your real world, and eat it with a side of responsibility and wash it all down with a nice glass of SCHOLARSHIP JUICE.
Christ almighty, ive had enough. Im tired of not being able to see my girlfriend when i want to, im tired of whithering away in the espestis filled walls of Paulsboro Fucking High School and god damnit im tired of hearing the word college and FUTURE. We are nothing but 17 and 18 year olds with the weight of the world on our backs and ive had enough of it. I guess my parents and everyone elses parents have forgotten what it was like to be a kid. Where you have fun and see your friends and girlfriends and do everything together, and not forbid them to see eachother and be fucking happy. Its rediculous really that they cant trust us enough to have our priorities right. I get straight fucking A's without even trying, do you really think i cant handle atching a little tv or listening to some music while im supposed to be writing up some lame ass paper on the history of the number 2 pencil? come on now.
Im tired of living like this.. and i cant believe im saying this but i want to live in a dorm room. I want to get out of this house and i want to sit in college for months at a time. I want to go play soccer for some dude and have that consume my august through december. Im ready to get out of this fucking place. I want to finish school and go off and get married and move far away and have a nice house. If this is what its going to be like from now until those things happen, than I might as well hide in my room until then.
Its hard to manage your time as a senior with the world ahead of you. Theres a job to balance, schoolwork to constantly get in the way, whichever sport or outside of school activity there is that you do, and who can forget the parents that ruin your life on a daily basis. Yes, this is teenage life, and you all know what im talking about.
With the college nonsense just about over, my parents are STILL bugging me to look a other schools, making sure i made the right choice, making sure everything is alright, which place do i want to go to how many scholarships did you fill out. Well i have a question, how many scholarships and job applications do i have to fill out in order to make you shut the hell up?
I see that window of time that I used to balance my life out in slowly getting smaller. Well not so much slowly, more like rather quickly. YMCA asked me to get working papers which must mean i got a job. So thats the after school life, out the window. no more DDR sessions and no more random mall trips or movie watching or the occasional trips to the farm because i have to become "responsible and work a shitty job that pays terrible just so i can see what the REAL WORLD is like." You can take your real world, and eat it with a side of responsibility and wash it all down with a nice glass of SCHOLARSHIP JUICE.
Christ almighty, ive had enough. Im tired of not being able to see my girlfriend when i want to, im tired of whithering away in the espestis filled walls of Paulsboro Fucking High School and god damnit im tired of hearing the word college and FUTURE. We are nothing but 17 and 18 year olds with the weight of the world on our backs and ive had enough of it. I guess my parents and everyone elses parents have forgotten what it was like to be a kid. Where you have fun and see your friends and girlfriends and do everything together, and not forbid them to see eachother and be fucking happy. Its rediculous really that they cant trust us enough to have our priorities right. I get straight fucking A's without even trying, do you really think i cant handle atching a little tv or listening to some music while im supposed to be writing up some lame ass paper on the history of the number 2 pencil? come on now.
Im tired of living like this.. and i cant believe im saying this but i want to live in a dorm room. I want to get out of this house and i want to sit in college for months at a time. I want to go play soccer for some dude and have that consume my august through december. Im ready to get out of this fucking place. I want to finish school and go off and get married and move far away and have a nice house. If this is what its going to be like from now until those things happen, than I might as well hide in my room until then.