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fallenplushie

the offical train wreck

Aug 09, 2005 05:22

so i was on my way to nc... but before mom could pick me up to spend the night i decided it would be good idea to drink. after about 4 or so shots in like 2 hours, tyler calls me to go out. he wants to go to the strip club with dave and i... i also decided this is a good idea and sneak too more shots. the new plan was to be dropped off at mom late ( Read more... )

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NOT TRUE!! makiyura August 9 2005, 07:25:58 UTC

However, from what I just read, there were too main causes fro this hell.

1) You drank too much. Have only one(if you can) from now on and let it be done. No more after that.

2) You left at your mom's. If you had put up with hell a little longer, you probably wouldn't have more now. my advice would to practice staying in places you don't want to be until you become impartial to it. From what I have read of your lj half your problems come from doing the exact opposite.

If I am wrong correct me. If you need to get anything else off your chest, email me at kylun88@yahoo.com. If I hurt you I apologize. And DON'T BLAME YOURSELF FOR ANYTHING BUT THOSE TWO THINGS I JUST MENTIONED. You do otherwise and you are feeding your mind with bullshit!! As I see it, one of your problems. Blame yourself for the realistic blame not the fantasy/false blame. And explain to Dave how he is not to blame either. You need to explain and tell these things to each other more. If you both told each other more comforting words more often, you both would feel more positive and do better than you are. Might fixed this messed up internal dialogue you keep typing.

Again, my apologies. But I am through living lies and am saying what is on my mind and in my heart.

Take care.

*smiles and hugs*

MAKI

Re: NOT TRUE!! fallenplushie August 9 2005, 08:28:32 UTC

see it IS my fault

Re: NOT TRUE!! jaded_moon August 9 2005, 11:25:26 UTC

Hey! Not helping! It was a two-sided thing, it's not her fault her mom's psychotic and over-reacts.

Re: NOT TRUE!! makiyura August 10 2005, 10:35:15 UTC

VERY TRUE!!

However,though she can't control her mom she has control of her actions.

Helping is lying that somehow she is not somewhat to blame huh?

Not!!!

Helping is being honest, offering advice and comfort, and find the best ways to keep these situations from happening.

What you need to GET OUT OF THAT HEAD,STEPH, is that part that says "It's ALL my fault" When "IT IS ONLY PARTLY MY FAULT."

SAY IT WITH ME!!!

"IT IS ONLY PARTLY MY FAULT."

Repeat.

"IT IS ONLY PARTLY MY FAULT."

Keep saying that in your head until you accept the facts.

You are overreacting Steph.

What is done is done!!

If You ARe Really as LOGICAL as you claim to be then answer me this:

WHAT IS THE POINT OF DWELLING ON SOMETHING THAT

A) IS ONLY PARTLY YOUR FAULT? NOT COMPLETELY.

B) YOU CAN'T CHANGE?

C) IS ALREADY DONE?

D) THAT BY FOCUSING SO MUCH ON IT THAT YOU ARE UNABLE TO PRACTICE WAYS TO KEEP IT FROM HAPPENING?

Repeat these questions until you can look at things rationally.

With friends you do fine.

With family you have difficulty. You don't have to like or love any of them but you must increase your tolerance of them.

I had a stepdad I HATED with a passion. I learn to tolerate and now things are WAY more social than we have ever been when I get to see him. No matter how much you get annoyed you have GOTTA LEARN TO TOLERATE OR YOUR OWN HELL YOU WILL ELEVATE!!

NO MORE AND NO LESS.

You blame yourself half the time for irrational notions and ideas that aren't even true.Your head says one thing while your heart says another. YOU NEED TO ALLIGN YOUR HEAD AND HEART. YOU HAFTA CHALLENGE THAT HEAD OF YOURS TO DO THAT. DISPELL THOSE MYTHS IN YOUR MIND.

I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!!

I'M HERE IF YA NEED IT!!

*HUGGLEZ*

MAKI

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