i've been thinking lately
a little too much, i've been thinking.
my mind wanders aimlessly. and usually where it ends up in all of that sinks my heart into a place it doesn't want to me. the aimless wandering is usually just my most self-absorbed thoughts analyzing everything, in a way that brings glory to me, and brings down other people.
it hate it. overanalytical. overcritical. it's good for school work, no doubt, but not good for life. in fact, in many days, it ends up being the death of me.
and the truth of this is that overthinking limits my prayer life. in the times i pray, i'm in desperate need, or i'm about to go do something "christian", like plan for bible study. and my prayers are limited to me, and my own enlightenment, and when it's about other people, it's because i have to. and those are usually shallow prayers.
so i want to cut out all this thinking. it's extraneous. not needed. i want to commit my life to prayer. not only praying for myself. no. pray in worship to god. and pray for people, people who God place in my heart to pray for. and pray for my family. and when i pray for myself that i pray to be like a child of God, and to recieve his love openly so I can openly love others.
what i feel God is telling me to do is this. when i'm walking. and i'm walking alone, to a class or something else, i won't take the time to think about myself as i usually do. not think about what i need to do. but just pray, even if it's just breathing God in and out. i'm going to pray. and i hope i remember to do this.
i'm sick of being so distracted by my extra thoughts.
my mind wanders aimlessly. and usually where it ends up in all of that sinks my heart into a place it doesn't want to me. the aimless wandering is usually just my most self-absorbed thoughts analyzing everything, in a way that brings glory to me, and brings down other people.
it hate it. overanalytical. overcritical. it's good for school work, no doubt, but not good for life. in fact, in many days, it ends up being the death of me.
and the truth of this is that overthinking limits my prayer life. in the times i pray, i'm in desperate need, or i'm about to go do something "christian", like plan for bible study. and my prayers are limited to me, and my own enlightenment, and when it's about other people, it's because i have to. and those are usually shallow prayers.
so i want to cut out all this thinking. it's extraneous. not needed. i want to commit my life to prayer. not only praying for myself. no. pray in worship to god. and pray for people, people who God place in my heart to pray for. and pray for my family. and when i pray for myself that i pray to be like a child of God, and to recieve his love openly so I can openly love others.
what i feel God is telling me to do is this. when i'm walking. and i'm walking alone, to a class or something else, i won't take the time to think about myself as i usually do. not think about what i need to do. but just pray, even if it's just breathing God in and out. i'm going to pray. and i hope i remember to do this.
i'm sick of being so distracted by my extra thoughts.