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Scorpio (Oct 23 - Nov 21) - A water sign represented by the scorpion, Scorpio symbolize intense power and passion. Scorpios are forceful, emotional, confident and intuitive. The most intense of the zodiacs, they may also become extremely jealous, obsessive, compulsive and resentful, which at times leads them to seek revenge.

"The most intense of the zodiacs" most definetely sounds like me... I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.

in·tense
adj. in·tens·er, in·tens·est

1. Possessing or displaying a distinctive feature to an extreme degree: the intense sun of the tropics.
2. Extreme in degree, strength, or size: intense heat.
3. Involving or showing strain or extreme effort: intense concentration.
4. 1. Deeply felt; profound: intense emotion.
   2. Tending to feel deeply: an intense writer.

If I am so intense, maybe I should be less intense in certain situations, right? And more so in others. Such as getting a job, going to school, having fun? And relax more? Loosin up a bit I guess. Now, this doesn't mean I'm going to go hog wild or something, and I'm sticking to my not drinking stuff, but I need to have a bit more fun... damn do I miss the interbelt! And I think I'm going to follow Liz's example, although not as strictly methinks, I want to start eating healthier, doing exercise. Bill & I were walking around in our yard tonite, in the moonlite, and it just... inspired me. I loved it. If I had a printer, I would be making cute little inspirational signs to hang up. Just to remind me to smile more. Jason says I should be nicer to most people, not just the people I care about.... Honestly, I don't care. I don't like people, what can I say? But maybe just from a result of trying to be more cheerful, it'll just happen? Probably not, I still won't like people lol. I'm still going to eat fast food fairly often, but I'm going to try & snack healthier & when I make food, I'll try to make it something good for me... maybe I should cut out the soda... we'll see lol. But I do want to start working out. I'll figure something out for that.

I am meditating a lot more too.
And man do I LOVE the country out here, it's so soothing at night.

Bill & I had an adventure tonite as we attempted to save the kitten I've dubbed Angel from a tree she had climbed WAAAAY too far up... And we couldn't catch her, or get her down ourselves, but she wasn't hurt, somehow.

I took my placement tests at Kent Stark today, and tested out of the reading & writing by a LONG shot, and tested straight into Intro to College Math. And we got Star Wars Toys at Burger king. Fuck yeah. Plus Bill bought the new Gorillaz CD, "Demon Days" EXCELLENT.

Anyways, back to my original point. I am an extremely obsessive person... that's just how I've always been... so time to obsess over something really important for once. Me.

*~Tsuki No Oni~*