Arg!!!!!
SO what do I do? EVERYTHING, seems to be drving me crazy, me and DJ have been fighting a lot lately or so it seems. He always thinks I'm mad at him or I'm going to leave him. SOMetimes I feel like hes never even listens to what I say. I love him with all my heart and I feel like lately he doens't trust me very much. I dunno how I am supposed to take everything, I feel like giving up everything again, but fuck that. I can't let myself fall into that again. I've done that too many time and fucked up my life. I mena I'm doing good in school right now, and I actually have my moms respect back. I just wish things were different. I wish I could let go of my memories and just hole on to the present. I'm scared of my past and of my future. I want to spend the rest of my life with DJ, but I was talking with my friend last night, and seriously, what are the chances? I love him with all of my heart and I can't imagine my life without him, but chances are, one day, I will be