this week has sucked so far..and its only tuesday...
well...this week has def not been ideal..but im counting it from friday...basically..so much shit has happened...but i realized alot of things...like not to let the small stuff bother you..and the big stuff is easier to deal with if you can laugh about it..thats for sure..but anyways...ive also been holding alot back these past few days...i havent gotten much sleep...that sucks..ive been hoped up on the caffine..which like..i havent drank pop since like..forever...so thats like..keeping me awake..but i need to be awake..so i can study..and do my papers and stuff..but..yeah...the small stuff...like..i was mad at one of my friends...theyll know later or something..but i was mad at them..they didnt even know..and i realized that theres no point in getting upset over something like that..whatev...i dont care about that any more..because i know there are greater things than just..getting upset over something trivial like that...but another thing is...ive just been holding some things back..because i dont want to like..make a big deal out of it...haha..thats making it seem like its a big deal..but its not..but ill let it out when the times right...but yeah..my computer decided to shank me...it crashed..my life as i know it is over...all my pictures..videos..music..all gone..oh yeah..and my school work..like half of my like eight page paper thats due tomorrow..im fucked up the ass soo hard...but its good that i can laugh over that...because...when it comes down to it...i guess its not what matters in life...hahaha...i cant wait to go home and summer to start...i cant wait for summer to end...and school to start...i really do like it here...i think in the beginning of the year..i kinda kept people away..because i wanted a reason to not like school..i wanted a reason to cling on to my past..i wasnt allowing myself to enjoy the present..and to actively take part in the present..but ive been doing that more and more..and i really do like it here..i really do...i like the people i hang out with now...and what we do..its great...it really is..i by no means not enjoy home..i def do..its just..this is so new and different...reading old xangas and livejournals are FUNNNNY!!! but anyways...i just..theres so much i want to say..but i have NO IDEA how to say it...whatev..hahha..this is soooo all over the place...but just let me know what your thinking..or that you read this...just let me know your still there =) leave a comment..because that would be nice...