*sighs*
Im so lonely, and i feel like crap.
Things are going better now, he still snaps at me alot and he knows that i dont like it. He has an anger management problem, we both do. And i think i've come to relize that im kinda controlling in a way, its not fair to him. But i've been noticing that im eating alot more, but im not gaining and thats cool. But no, im not pregnate. Just to make sure everyone saw that, i repeat: I am not pregnate. Tim and i are still getting married in june, hopefully people will come. I know jet's going to hopefully come, not sure about brock yet. I know that amanda will probably come....and sadly, i think thats all of my friend that can come. I'll still have my family but i dont know how many of his family, if any, will come due to the gothic motif. We're calling it "old shakespear days".
I messed up really bad tonight, even though she says i didnt and that it was his fault i still think that it was part mine. As long as their both happy, thats all i can hope for. I just pray and hope that we dont have anymore stress, i dont think we can take much more. I dont know whats gonna happen after i graduate, im thinking about just going and signing with a publishing group that wants me to continue to write, that would be a nice job. Just to get it out of the way, i dont really like one of my friends right now just because shes not really acting like she cares about whats going on and shes not talking to me alot...its kinda sad.
Things are going better now, he still snaps at me alot and he knows that i dont like it. He has an anger management problem, we both do. And i think i've come to relize that im kinda controlling in a way, its not fair to him. But i've been noticing that im eating alot more, but im not gaining and thats cool. But no, im not pregnate. Just to make sure everyone saw that, i repeat: I am not pregnate. Tim and i are still getting married in june, hopefully people will come. I know jet's going to hopefully come, not sure about brock yet. I know that amanda will probably come....and sadly, i think thats all of my friend that can come. I'll still have my family but i dont know how many of his family, if any, will come due to the gothic motif. We're calling it "old shakespear days".
I messed up really bad tonight, even though she says i didnt and that it was his fault i still think that it was part mine. As long as their both happy, thats all i can hope for. I just pray and hope that we dont have anymore stress, i dont think we can take much more. I dont know whats gonna happen after i graduate, im thinking about just going and signing with a publishing group that wants me to continue to write, that would be a nice job. Just to get it out of the way, i dont really like one of my friends right now just because shes not really acting like she cares about whats going on and shes not talking to me alot...its kinda sad.