oh god
ok so heres the deal for those who dont already know. My company basicly let me go due to bullshit, after the corporate heads saw me and were not pleased with how i looked what bull shit. So i am unemplpyeed and broke as shit. Marissa had already quit her job and started another one but now she gets paided way less. So basicly im poor our good friend tierra has been helping us out alot and we both appreciate it. But it sucks bills still need to be paid, Insurance, Car, Rent, Utlities. It blows major dick.
So im looking for new work ill probably be back at the horr in the meantime. im weighing my options with some companies right now, or even leasing my own truck. Who knows. In good news marissa is happy at work finally. In bad news still no new place on our own again what a major bummer. I really dont think things could get any worse. It really sucks though because i feel like giving up some times. Ive busted my ass trying to fo the best and its never good enough. Ive had a week off and im probably just gonna go with a company that i really dont want to go with just to keep my head above the water for now. I have no clue what i want, or what i want to do with my life any more, i feel like such a waste. A shitty friend that can and probably never be able to pay my own way. I owe all my friends so much, Mario, Danny, Yvonne, thanks for being there for me all the time, youve always had my back and ill always have yours, also ryan and his moms always there helping, It sucks because i used to be the one helping and now i need it all(what a piece of shit i have become).
Im sorry to make any one feel sorry for me dont, ive done this to myself and im dealing its sucks and ive mismanaged my money so much in the past it is fucking killing me now, i can barely keep my cell phone turned on, i owe every fucking company money, i owe my own roommates money that i hope i can pay them, and ill be suprised if we can even stay here much longer let alone still buy food.
So im looking for new work ill probably be back at the horr in the meantime. im weighing my options with some companies right now, or even leasing my own truck. Who knows. In good news marissa is happy at work finally. In bad news still no new place on our own again what a major bummer. I really dont think things could get any worse. It really sucks though because i feel like giving up some times. Ive busted my ass trying to fo the best and its never good enough. Ive had a week off and im probably just gonna go with a company that i really dont want to go with just to keep my head above the water for now. I have no clue what i want, or what i want to do with my life any more, i feel like such a waste. A shitty friend that can and probably never be able to pay my own way. I owe all my friends so much, Mario, Danny, Yvonne, thanks for being there for me all the time, youve always had my back and ill always have yours, also ryan and his moms always there helping, It sucks because i used to be the one helping and now i need it all(what a piece of shit i have become).
Im sorry to make any one feel sorry for me dont, ive done this to myself and im dealing its sucks and ive mismanaged my money so much in the past it is fucking killing me now, i can barely keep my cell phone turned on, i owe every fucking company money, i owe my own roommates money that i hope i can pay them, and ill be suprised if we can even stay here much longer let alone still buy food.