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Ew. Health class is so fucking pointless in the tenth grade. Seriously. When half of the girls in your class have already been pregnant, I think it's a little late for sexual education... Yeah, that's an exaggeration. So what. The point still stands. Besides, my health class consists of quite possibly the most useless people on the planet. My main example? Danielle Bataglia. I probably spelt her last name wrong but she isn't exactly worth the effort of looking it up. Such a moron. And I'm not being mean because I don't like her. Sure, I wouldn't exactly object were someone to, you know, kill her. But my utter loathing of her has nothing to do with my calling her stupid. I mean, really. Abe convinced her that they turn Niagra Falls off at night. It really doesn't get much sadder than that... It doesn't help that Susanna dropped the class a while ago (October-ish. I should be done with it but the idiot guidance office scheduled me in one of the classes that last all year, but you only have to go every other day...), so now I'm completely alone in there. But that? Is not why I'm talking to you about health class right now. It's actually a result of Wednesday's class. You see, we had a sub. Which means that we did absolutely nothing. For 40 fucking minutes. Plus, this sub was a moron, and let us do whatever the hell we wanted (this would have been fun if I weren't completely alone, aside from the 3 Juniors I talk to occasionally...). Alex got the fucking remote, and spent almost the ENTIREFUCKINGPERIOD! flipping through channels. Now, doing this once, okay, fine. But six fucking times in forty minutes?! We never exactly moved out of one time slot, so it's not like there'd be something different on the second, third, fourth, fifth, or even *gasp!* the sixth time he did it. For a while they left it on VH1, but mainly because one of the juniors and I wouldn't let them change it when the Mr. Brightside video was on, and then Boulevard of Broken Dreams (gag. Sorry, but after hearing it, like, 10,000 fucking times it gets sort of annoying. A shame too, because if it wasn't so overplayed it'd be a really good song)... It all reminded my why the hell I never spend time with people, especially not with television or music. Nobody ever fucking agrees on anything! We're not even supposed to watch MTV or VH1 in school...
Moving on, I'm going to be home alone for the weekend. In some ways this is really good, and in other ways, well... it isn't. I mean, this means that I won't have to see my sister (to whom I am no longer speaking. I decided this would make me a feel a hell of a lot better) and that's always good, seeing as how ever since she decided to devour what little happiness I was beginning to rebuild I've wanted nothing more than to watch her rot in hell. But being home alone also means that I will be just that: alone. And when I'm alone I tend to think longer about things that tend to make me want to swallow a bottle of pills or slit my fucking throat, so I usually prefer not to be alone for longer than a few hours. But I guess this also means that for the first time in a week I can feel upset without having to feel guilty. You see, now that my parents are aware that there's not something completely right with me (though they aren't really clued in on what, yet. They just think I'm angry because they yelled at me all fucking Saturday, and apparently, mother (who thought it "was wrong" for my sister to be going through my stuff, yet proceeded to do so by herself a few days later) found the note I wrote Saturday night (I was planning on walking around the neighborhood a few hours... apparently it "worried" my parents), and now thinks that it is her sole duty to keep me happy because she believes that whenever I'm upset it's because of her) they are determined to please me. And that, well, that makes me feel guilty. Because it isn't their fault, so I don't think they should spend their time trying to make up for anything. But whatever. They're going away for the weekend so it doesn't matter.
Also. My new icon? Fucking. Rules. Hah. Anchorman is a wonderful, wonderful film...
And now, a survey. Because I don't feel like doing this anymore...
What's x-ed is true. All italics are my personal comments...
[ ] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x] I've consumed alcohol
[x] I've run away from home
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[x] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up. (And there are many...)
[ ] I am for Bush.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic
[ ] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x ] I have "x"s in my screen name. (I have an x in one screen name...)
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I cook well.
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[x] I am in love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[x] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower. (Greatest book ever...)
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[x] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I've been out of this country.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[x] bite my nails.
[ ] I am comfortable with being me.
[ ] I play video games.
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I've gotten lost in my own city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star
[x] Been to any other countries besides the united states (Canada. They're pretty much the same thing, but whatever...)
[ ] I Had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ] I have Kissed a Stranger
[ ] Hugged a stranger
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[ ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[ ] Swore at your parents
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[x] Been close to love
[ ] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[x] Broken a bone
[x] Skipped school
[ ] Flashed someone
[ ] Saw a therapist
[ ] Done the splits
[ ] Played spin the bottle
[ ] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[x] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Kissed a member of the same sex
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[ ] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[ ] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[x] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[ ] Been on a plane
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[ ] Eaten Sushi
[ ] Been snowboarding
[x] Been Skiing
[ ] Met someone in person from the internet
[ ]Been to a motocross show
[ ] Lost a child
[ ] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[x] Taken painkillers
[ ] Had someone cheat on you
[x] Miss someone right now