a happy post!! -for once
So, since the last time. when I was freaking out and being myself. (I honestly think the freaking out is part of my fucked up copeing style) I hung out with Caitlynne and Jamie and Ash and Maggie (for a bit) yesterday they all met me at VDP, where I had the FASTEST hour of work ever. then we hung out on the lawn, I bought kids book at the bookstore (I have to memorize it and present in in ASL next week). Caitlynne ran off to do homework and the rest of us hung out. before E-board got going, I got a call from Caitlynne asking me to meet for dinner. and it was so cuite, we spent a few minits hanging out in the warm (May-like) night air. we both pointed out Jupiter (our first date we learnd what it looks like. now we feel suppiror). We went in, saw Jessica Petit, who was apposlutly amazing!! at Coffee, is where I was able to start reaferming that not, I did not dream this, she really is in to me.
We were dancing around, acting silly, I was holding her, but she is so much taller then me, that I could not really be in the converstion, so we switched. and it was cuite. I love when she digs her chin into the top of my head, and holds me around the middle (I used to hate this, it feels odd, and I often feel fat, their tuching me in my middle. (but with her its starting to feel okey)) I feel safe. It was a wonderful feeling, she may be younger, but she feels so safe. I like the way I can almost curl up under her chin. - when I finaly had to go, she looked so sad, and I almost felt guilty, but the goodbye kiss was. . . amazing. I feel better now. I feel like this may even go somewhere and at least, we have amazing chemistry.
Today, I meet up with her before my friend's sex toy event (he is an RA and he put it on for his residents). I offered to help him. so Caitlynne and I went over there and made Pinis-shaped cookies for 2 hours. (some one elce got to make the boob cup cakes). it was amazingly hot (backing and sexy). then we went and watched the presentation, it was just like a Passion Party but men where invited too. after, we looked at all the stuff and Caitlynne made me try this nipple stuff, that makes you all tingly and wonderful. (there were some fun toys too). the Ash put the stuff on caitlynne's back. well I kissed her, and then I had th damn stuff on my lips and nose too. THAT felt amazing (realy, put the stuff on your mouth, and then kiss, its wonderful). We all walked around, and Caitlynne had to be lame and go do homework, but the good bye kiss. . . conformation I am not dreaming. asked if I would see her later, the answer is deffinalty, and hung out with Ash, Maggie, Diana, and Zeke. They made fun of us, cuz our kiss was nto subtile, calling us gay and genderaly being anoying friends (THANK YOU BTW).
its been good. and now I am off to dream, and keep the happy
We were dancing around, acting silly, I was holding her, but she is so much taller then me, that I could not really be in the converstion, so we switched. and it was cuite. I love when she digs her chin into the top of my head, and holds me around the middle (I used to hate this, it feels odd, and I often feel fat, their tuching me in my middle. (but with her its starting to feel okey)) I feel safe. It was a wonderful feeling, she may be younger, but she feels so safe. I like the way I can almost curl up under her chin. - when I finaly had to go, she looked so sad, and I almost felt guilty, but the goodbye kiss was. . . amazing. I feel better now. I feel like this may even go somewhere and at least, we have amazing chemistry.
Today, I meet up with her before my friend's sex toy event (he is an RA and he put it on for his residents). I offered to help him. so Caitlynne and I went over there and made Pinis-shaped cookies for 2 hours. (some one elce got to make the boob cup cakes). it was amazingly hot (backing and sexy). then we went and watched the presentation, it was just like a Passion Party but men where invited too. after, we looked at all the stuff and Caitlynne made me try this nipple stuff, that makes you all tingly and wonderful. (there were some fun toys too). the Ash put the stuff on caitlynne's back. well I kissed her, and then I had th damn stuff on my lips and nose too. THAT felt amazing (realy, put the stuff on your mouth, and then kiss, its wonderful). We all walked around, and Caitlynne had to be lame and go do homework, but the good bye kiss. . . conformation I am not dreaming. asked if I would see her later, the answer is deffinalty, and hung out with Ash, Maggie, Diana, and Zeke. They made fun of us, cuz our kiss was nto subtile, calling us gay and genderaly being anoying friends (THANK YOU BTW).
its been good. and now I am off to dream, and keep the happy