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why do I always do this with matters of the heart? Why do I over think, rush in, start to dream? I am so full of paranoia right now I can't think clearly. and its a shame, I have so much to do.
why is it, that once I start fiugreing out my life. getting things under control, my major, what I really wanna be studing, a 2nd job, I am excited about, and can't wait to start. why dose this happen? why did Caitlynne dance on my heart strings for a week. not that I even know its over. or that there was anything to be over. (sure we kissed 4 days in row, but the does not nessascerly mean anything.) and its not like I have talked to her since sunday. I mean we kissed goodbye sunday mornin g at 5am. I texted her later that day, and she respeoned, short, and too the point (not a phone person). I texted her later sunday night to see if she wanted to get coffee monday and heard nothing. I called after class today, to see if she wante dto get dinner before Sptrie. but heard nothing (can't blame her, its only 10 am, I would be a sleep if I could). - Damn I feel a bit like a stalker. and I CAN"T get her out of my head. I've known her a week and have been freaking out since Friday.
why do I do this? and what do I do now?
I need to just hang out with her. talk to her. but I am feeling so afriad. . . really, could I just a get a friend to give me hug? tell me to calm down, help me figure out what I am trying to say, how I really feel.
I feel foolish for feeling all of this after only week. but there we are. this is me.
why is it, that once I start fiugreing out my life. getting things under control, my major, what I really wanna be studing, a 2nd job, I am excited about, and can't wait to start. why dose this happen? why did Caitlynne dance on my heart strings for a week. not that I even know its over. or that there was anything to be over. (sure we kissed 4 days in row, but the does not nessascerly mean anything.) and its not like I have talked to her since sunday. I mean we kissed goodbye sunday mornin g at 5am. I texted her later that day, and she respeoned, short, and too the point (not a phone person). I texted her later sunday night to see if she wanted to get coffee monday and heard nothing. I called after class today, to see if she wante dto get dinner before Sptrie. but heard nothing (can't blame her, its only 10 am, I would be a sleep if I could). - Damn I feel a bit like a stalker. and I CAN"T get her out of my head. I've known her a week and have been freaking out since Friday.
why do I do this? and what do I do now?
I need to just hang out with her. talk to her. but I am feeling so afriad. . . really, could I just a get a friend to give me hug? tell me to calm down, help me figure out what I am trying to say, how I really feel.
I feel foolish for feeling all of this after only week. but there we are. this is me.