finally over
Ok well me and damien arent talking nemore....finally.....he decided not to talk 2 me nemore because im selfish??? long story but its bullshit..and as much as i wanted 2 b the one person who never gave up on him...i couldnt help it when he wasnt ever there for me....i tryed being strong and be this strong woman that everyone expected of me...and i m...but it was just wearing me out gettin this emails like im just some other person in his life...it was frustrating and i wanted more..and he didint want more at the time....and so he thinks im being selfish and said he no longer wants to talk 2 me nemore.it hurts and i feel bad...but what else can i do...when i try 2 email him back...no words come 2 mind.
this is the first time i cant think of nething 2 possibly fix the situation n 2 b honest im so tired of trying 2 fix it...im so out of words and ideas..and tired of making it seem like its my fault in the least bit...because i know its not...i understand hes in iraq and he needs someone there 4 him a little more then me...but need something 2...its not just 1 way..and hes selfish for only caring about himself.....its hard and im scared....because he really isnt talking 2 me...everyone says we will talk again and blah blah blah but i dont know bout this time...i was taking care of his mom but she hasnt called me since he told me 2 stop taking care of her...so its hard....but maybe this is good for me...maybe i can finally get over him this time? i dont know.....i just gotta give up i think...i really do...ive done everything i could possibly ever do 4 this guy....if he doesnt come back 2 me it wasnt ment 2 b ive given my all...theres only so much i can do and for so long....giving up is the only way.......it hurts 2 do it but i cant keep doing this 2 myself...im scared but happy at the same time....
Laura
this is the first time i cant think of nething 2 possibly fix the situation n 2 b honest im so tired of trying 2 fix it...im so out of words and ideas..and tired of making it seem like its my fault in the least bit...because i know its not...i understand hes in iraq and he needs someone there 4 him a little more then me...but need something 2...its not just 1 way..and hes selfish for only caring about himself.....its hard and im scared....because he really isnt talking 2 me...everyone says we will talk again and blah blah blah but i dont know bout this time...i was taking care of his mom but she hasnt called me since he told me 2 stop taking care of her...so its hard....but maybe this is good for me...maybe i can finally get over him this time? i dont know.....i just gotta give up i think...i really do...ive done everything i could possibly ever do 4 this guy....if he doesnt come back 2 me it wasnt ment 2 b ive given my all...theres only so much i can do and for so long....giving up is the only way.......it hurts 2 do it but i cant keep doing this 2 myself...im scared but happy at the same time....
Laura