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so last night, reality hit me. first off, im actually going off to college. i'm actually going to have to step out of my comfort zone, and just start completely over. i'm not even sure if i'm ready. i dont know why its only hit me now though. sure i knew i was gonna go and everything, but i dunno i think i was totally in denial that things are gonna be completely different. what im used to, wont be there anymore. im actually going to have to grow up and be independent. and i love that and all, its just weird that its finally happening. i'm actually growing up. it's weird. i have orientation on monday and tuesday and god, im scared shitless. im excited to meet a lot of new people and all, but good god im scared. second...my other sister is soon getting married. ill be the only nadal girl left. its crazy thinking about how fast things change. it just seems like yesterday when we would dance around our kitchen or even the whole family just being around the dinner table. now both of them have found their soul mates, and theyre making their own little family. i couldnt be happier. they both deserve the best. i have to say a toast at the wedding and its a good thing i SUCK at things like that. besides the fact i hate public speaking i dont know what to say...congratulations? happy hunting to you and your merry men? UGH. hopefully everyones drunk already so they dont remember or theyre not paying attention. third, i miss my friends. i miss each and every single one of them. i know things have changed between some of us, but god i love them to death. i miss them, and when i come back home, i hope we can all bond and just get to know each other again before i leave for college.
and those...are my thougghts for the night. or morning in this case.
and those...are my thougghts for the night. or morning in this case.