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Just realised I'm chewing on Jack's memory stick. I'm quite hungry actually.
It's getting dark outside at 4pm. I'm sitting in the library, not many people here. There never is at weekends, I think people just hide inside or go home. I do like night time it's more to the case of; I've only seen daylight for 3 hours! I wouldn't like to live in the arctic circle, like the furthest northern Russia, no wonder they drink themselves to death.
I can't actually remember the statistic for deaths from alcohol last year, but I do remember that some Russians drink Petrol. That's commitment.
Anyway this will probably be my last update for the forseeable future unless British Telecom decide to actually do something. I swear we first spoke to them in September about a phone line and t'internet, it's 60 days later and now they're just full of crap. They even want to charge us another deposit for setting up a new phoneline, after supposedly we have two, and they managed to turn Flat Three's off as they mistaked it for our one. I'm starting to think that BT employ monkeys. So they want to charge us a new deposit without actually giving us the money back for the first deposit. Where is the logic in that? Everything is so evil in this world. Look at myspace for example, something that is derived as alternative, yet really when you consider that it is owned by Rupert Murdoch and occasionaly they advertise Fox Films (I could well be wrong - do they even make films?)...it's just a bit poo.
I knew we should have gone with NTL. We were walking by Bede Park once and it was like they were waiting underneath a bridge jumping out and asking "You got internet sorted out yet?". Even in town some guy with a dodgy accent was saying "Well I'll get you a form and you'll have it in three days!" Which probably would have been a better decision. Actually someone told us not to go with them. Well in the future, I'm just not going to listen to anyone at all.
Despite various people messing around with us (I've almost been run over twice by Asians who seem to think it is funny to not stop when you clearly have the right of way and they are yards away in their car, yet speed up.) things have been mostly good.
I'm starting to appreciate the sort of side to my life I've never had before, like actually being with someone. Except I am still currently not but I guess I've been holding out for someone far too long and the best decision would be to move on, but part of thinks that isn't the best decision. She might well be with someone else right now, yet well, I don't know. My mind is like a landmine field on that one, it's like a lot of opportunities have arisen but perhaps my morale standards are a bit too big, and the whole anxiety thing doesn't really help the fact. It's just occured to me recently that I can be perfectly calm and then go through periods where it's the total opposite. Perhaps the fact is that I do have control over it, but well yeah. It's one of those moments where words don't really describe.
My parents brought up my keyboard the other day. I just want to play Starlight by Muse all day, and every day. Also trying to work out the chords for the charmingly titled song "Cancer" by My Chemical Romance. I think their new album is pretty good, one or two songs sound like Green Day out takes (they shared the same producer), but I was thinking that concept albums, despite being nothing new, are quite special these days. When you consider that the CD will be a dead format one day, concept albums make CDs more worthwhile. Except "The Black Parade" has no chronological order, which apparently is done on purpose. It's about a young man who dies of Cancer, so the album is about him facing up to death and looking back on his life and recalling early memories. Which apparently every human does and puts them in no significant order at all, a bit like the story on this album. It's certainly the most interesting thing I've heard recently. Also The Long Blondes is quite interesting, sort of takes on a female perspective of life and romance, although it's a bit cheesy and the lyrics are a bit poo on some songs. Actually written by a man and sung by a woman, there's a lot of lesbian undertones. Now that I think about it, the guy probably wrote them like that on purpose. "How I'd love to feel a woman your age". Maybe he's a paedophile. Who knows!
Anyway I'm going to go have dinner. It's a bit dark might get attacked by Zombies. Or almost get run over again. Seriously one day I will get hit and then they won't find it so funny! Bye bye x