Jul 09, 2004 03:07
Hmmm... I'm in a weird mood right now...
Like, I don't know who I am anymore.
I love heather so much! The way she acts and dresses... and for the past two months I have been trying to change myself to what she would want, but what I realized is I can love what she wears and the way she acts without actually being her. I mean I'm not saying I wont ever wear a dress again or that I wont mimic her look every once in a while but I feel like I need to get in touch with who I was before all of this happened. lately heather has been all that mattered. she is a really big part of my life but I cant ignore the friends I knew before her anymore. they are also a big part of who I am today! I'm going to try and decide on the way I want to dress from now on and more importantly what I feel comfortable in. I'm in a weird place on the moment! its like talking to a friend you haven't seen in a long time except the friend is me. hmmm I need to go... much thinking to be done.