Another day in the life

[fairytorigirl]

I'm back after over a month of not updating, but I have an excuse; my computer is not hooked up from having moved it home from the shit hole town I wasted an entire semester in. It's nice to be home. I never thought I'd say that, but after being somewhere you hate, it applies. I wish I could just move to New York or LA, go to auditions and take baby steps in pursuing what i want to do. I feel like I'm wasting time here cuz i don't want to do anything here..school isn't really helping me..cuz i don't know what i want to do in school. a degree won't make you an actress. am i stupid for having such a big dream? do i need to get realistic here? if ed was here i know for sure i'd me much more confident.. he believed in anything. I'd take him along with me to ny or la cuz he would motivate me and love to have an adventure. "don't dream it, be it, Perrin". eh well.. so much for that now i guess.
i'm registering for classes at tech tomorrow.. whoopde shit! working at al amir hasn't been bad.. i've made good money.. and it's kept me busy. the next few months are going to be rough tho. my mom is selling our house. the house i grew up in. the house that holds every little memory of my childhood. what a shitty way to start off the new year.
exciting things to look forward to: tori's new album the beekeeper arriving in feb., my own appartment, my birthday in march, and charlie and the chocolate factory this summer!! whoo hoo! these little things will hopefully heal me in parts as i fall to bits.
the time has come the walrus said to talk of many things of shoes and ships and ceiling wax of cabbages and kings.