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i want a boy really bad. i'm not even picky. i just want someone to be cute with. a boy who will be my best friend, the guy who will drop everything to be with me at anytime no matter what..the guy who will make me smile like no other guy can, and when he smiles i know he needs me..the guy who thinks i'm still beauitful even when i think i'm not. i want a boy who i can make the center of my world casue obvisously i'll be the center of his. i want a guy to chase me for once and pick me a flower and write a song on an acoustic guitar and play it for me. and wisper sweet nothings in my ear and tell me that i'm beautiful and actually mean it. and i want to cuddle and be myself with him, and fall alseep in his arms and stare at the stars with him. who could stand in the rain, spin me around, and laugh cause we're too dizzy for words. someone who could stop everything they're doing, just so they could call. someone who could hold me during a thunderstorm and lay with me on the couch when all the lights are off. a guy who could lay outside with me for hours and ask me about what i want to be, and what i like. someone who would sing to me at random moments. and kick rocks when we walked down the street together. i want someone who wouldn't mind buying me little random inexpensive things whenever given the chance. he would call me all the time to let me know he's thinking about me, we’d make fun of people at the mall together. and we'd always take pictures in photo booths. he'd never turn down a trip to the beach to watch the sunset. or a trip to the roof to lay and look at the stars at night. he'd tell all his friends about me and smile when he did. someone to share lollie pops with. we'd have pillow fights. he wouldn't care if i woke him up. i want a boy who can argue over stupid things with me. he'd love music just as much as i do. i want someone who would lay with me in the grass and look for shapes in the clouds. he would sing every word to every song we play in the car. he'd surprise me all the time. he wouldn't break my heart or lie to me.(or cheat) he'd hold me closer than normal if i was sick. he would draw me pictures. we'd buy disposable camera's and take tons of pictures. i want a boy who would open up to me. who could stay up all night with me. a boy who wouldn't mind if i liked to sleep in his clothes. someone who'd like to lay next to me and hold me all night. and our mission is to fall in love with each other every day, without trying.
i am so tired. and i feel so crappy. and i really miss someone. and i don't know how he feels. is it so hard to have someone say, "HEY JENNY I LIKE YOU LET'S GO OUT." i mean i shouldn't whine i know. but i'm in that mood.
someone love me.
peas?
jesus. i haven't been this sad/confused/emo in a long long time. but i'm lonely. really lonely. i'm ok with not having someone's hand to hold. i'm ok with not having a shoulder to lean on. or someone to snuggle up with as we watch a creepy movie. i'm ok with not having someone to fall asleep with. i'm ok with not having someone to spend lazy saturdays with. i'm even ok with not having a date on a friday night when everyone else i'm out with does. but i'm not ok with this emptiness making chaos in my heart. i'm not ok with feeling like shit because i know that i have no one to call at 3 in the morning when I have a bad dream. i'm not ok with crying my guts out for no other reason then for crying. i don't need a fucking reason to be sad. because i am sad.
and people telling me that they're "pretty sure stright boys cant hate me to much,im just to damn sexy" and that "i shouldnt be sad cause i'm to pretty to be mad cause i can get any guy i want" makes me just want to hate you. so shut the fuck up stupid cunt faces. cause obvisously i can't get any guy i want casue i want you and i can't have you.
okay this is long and not really making any sense. it's late and i'm rambling. but mostly i'm just really lonely and i really want a boyyy.
I call out your name
but you're miles away
please tell me how to deal with that.
i am so tired. and i feel so crappy. and i really miss someone. and i don't know how he feels. is it so hard to have someone say, "HEY JENNY I LIKE YOU LET'S GO OUT." i mean i shouldn't whine i know. but i'm in that mood.
someone love me.
peas?
jesus. i haven't been this sad/confused/emo in a long long time. but i'm lonely. really lonely. i'm ok with not having someone's hand to hold. i'm ok with not having a shoulder to lean on. or someone to snuggle up with as we watch a creepy movie. i'm ok with not having someone to fall asleep with. i'm ok with not having someone to spend lazy saturdays with. i'm even ok with not having a date on a friday night when everyone else i'm out with does. but i'm not ok with this emptiness making chaos in my heart. i'm not ok with feeling like shit because i know that i have no one to call at 3 in the morning when I have a bad dream. i'm not ok with crying my guts out for no other reason then for crying. i don't need a fucking reason to be sad. because i am sad.
and people telling me that they're "pretty sure stright boys cant hate me to much,im just to damn sexy" and that "i shouldnt be sad cause i'm to pretty to be mad cause i can get any guy i want" makes me just want to hate you. so shut the fuck up stupid cunt faces. cause obvisously i can't get any guy i want casue i want you and i can't have you.
okay this is long and not really making any sense. it's late and i'm rambling. but mostly i'm just really lonely and i really want a boyyy.
I call out your name
but you're miles away
please tell me how to deal with that.