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Ah, so much has happened in the past few weeks and I've been worried sick... but not. I guess it's all worked out in the end, just slightly unsettling to have had it all crash down around my ears for a bit.
So Martin and I almost broke up.
Daniel's home.
I was going out of my mind with boredom due to my lack of job over the summer.
Jessie is awesomeness.
Jessica is apparently home for the summer, but not.
Martin and I worked things out.
Apparently I am fated to spend a great deal of time on the road between Hemet and Long Beach.
A job just landed in my lap.
I'm actually going to go through with my plan of "dressing for me" and not just because Martin wants me to be more like Monica.
As a rather random sidenote: I'm hungry. That hasn't happened in a long while.
So I'm in Long Beach at the moment, killing time before wandering over to the Language institute to discuss a possible schedule for the summer. Apparently now that I have more open availability they'd love to have me on as a student assistant. Despite the commute and hassle of coming all the way down here on a daily basis, I think it'll be awesome if only because it gets me out the house, it makes it so that being a Conversation Partner is economically feasible now that I'll geta decent number of hours, and I won't be too bored this summer, besides, since I'll be on the metro regularly, I can wander out to Hollywood and LA.
So yeah, I guess I could say that I've been busy this summer, though not always in the ways I would like. I'm working on it and on me. Partially I know that I'm changing for me and some of it's for him and I know how odd and possesive and such that makes him seem but it's not. Not in the way that people always get all up in arms about. Sad, that I seem to have lost a friend or at least lost contact with the person, over disagreements about it. I dunno, my relationship with him seems to be in a more personal sphere, like it's not something that I talk about much because there aren't many people I know who get it.
Not that I'm sick in the head and in denial about things but it is a long term relationship and for some reason none of my friends seem very good at that kind of thing. So the off hand comments about "God, I swear we've been dating for too long" seem serious to them. It's not that I want to break up with him, it's an acknowldgement that it's almost been five years. If I said that about a friend that I'd known that long no one would bat an eyelash.
I guess that's why I'm rather excited about my budding friendship with Jessie. She's been dating her boyfriend for something like seven years now. Wow. Just talking to her about the little relationship things is so odd because we understand each other and I haven't had anything like that in a long while. Particularly in that most of the people I'm friends with "know" Martin but we don't really hang out and vice versa for his friends. Even though we hang out with Ivan and Monica on a regular basis it's interesting how Monica is his friend and I get along so much better with Ivan. Of course I also think that in some ways Monica doesn't like me, but that's a story for a whole different post.
Besides, I need to get going to figure out this whole work thing. I'll write more later, if only because I need to get stuff off my chest.
So Martin and I almost broke up.
Daniel's home.
I was going out of my mind with boredom due to my lack of job over the summer.
Jessie is awesomeness.
Jessica is apparently home for the summer, but not.
Martin and I worked things out.
Apparently I am fated to spend a great deal of time on the road between Hemet and Long Beach.
A job just landed in my lap.
I'm actually going to go through with my plan of "dressing for me" and not just because Martin wants me to be more like Monica.
As a rather random sidenote: I'm hungry. That hasn't happened in a long while.
So I'm in Long Beach at the moment, killing time before wandering over to the Language institute to discuss a possible schedule for the summer. Apparently now that I have more open availability they'd love to have me on as a student assistant. Despite the commute and hassle of coming all the way down here on a daily basis, I think it'll be awesome if only because it gets me out the house, it makes it so that being a Conversation Partner is economically feasible now that I'll geta decent number of hours, and I won't be too bored this summer, besides, since I'll be on the metro regularly, I can wander out to Hollywood and LA.
So yeah, I guess I could say that I've been busy this summer, though not always in the ways I would like. I'm working on it and on me. Partially I know that I'm changing for me and some of it's for him and I know how odd and possesive and such that makes him seem but it's not. Not in the way that people always get all up in arms about. Sad, that I seem to have lost a friend or at least lost contact with the person, over disagreements about it. I dunno, my relationship with him seems to be in a more personal sphere, like it's not something that I talk about much because there aren't many people I know who get it.
Not that I'm sick in the head and in denial about things but it is a long term relationship and for some reason none of my friends seem very good at that kind of thing. So the off hand comments about "God, I swear we've been dating for too long" seem serious to them. It's not that I want to break up with him, it's an acknowldgement that it's almost been five years. If I said that about a friend that I'd known that long no one would bat an eyelash.
I guess that's why I'm rather excited about my budding friendship with Jessie. She's been dating her boyfriend for something like seven years now. Wow. Just talking to her about the little relationship things is so odd because we understand each other and I haven't had anything like that in a long while. Particularly in that most of the people I'm friends with "know" Martin but we don't really hang out and vice versa for his friends. Even though we hang out with Ivan and Monica on a regular basis it's interesting how Monica is his friend and I get along so much better with Ivan. Of course I also think that in some ways Monica doesn't like me, but that's a story for a whole different post.
Besides, I need to get going to figure out this whole work thing. I'll write more later, if only because I need to get stuff off my chest.