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I give up on boys.
I went out with this boy today that I thought was very kind and gentle. But then I realized that the only things we have in common only have to do with out culture, and that on a personal level I just couldn't connect. It felt ackward from the beginning. AND THEN he keeps asking if I have a boyfriend. I say, for the last time, no I don't. Then he asks, well what about me? I begin to feel very uncomfortable and say "Um I dont know. yr nice I guess". He then asks if we could hold hands, and of course I make it clear that I just dont feel comfortable.
He seemed so shy and gentle when I first met him a while ago, and now all of a sudden he pushes me to be his girlfriend? He said that he's never had a real girlfriend before and that I'm so different from all the other middle eastern girls he grew up around (he lived in kuwait and went to school in iran for a time). He also said that he's kinda alone in this country and he'd like to have someone to "share things" with. You could imagine how strange I was beginning to feel. I really didn't see any of this pushiness/ needyness coming.
This is the second time that this has happened in the past 30 days. A month ago, there was another boy I went out with ONCE. After that, he kept asking to date me more and that he likes me and that even if i hated him he would still think im really amazing. He kept asking me to hang out with him because he was lonely on that specific day. As with the other guy, he really didnt care about how I felt about the whole thing until I straight up told him that I didnt want a relationship and that hes coming off way too strong.
Why dont these boys I attract ever consider how I feel about being in a relationship? Its always about what they want, they think its okay for them to be really pushy. And i dont like needy boys! it just shows such a lack of character and dependence. whyyy am i attracting boys that are clingy and dont consider how i feel? am i doing something wrong? or maybe im just too sweet and understanding and guys think they can just be so forward with me.
i feel drained and weird, im gonna go take a nap and eat some cake and hope ill feel better.
I went out with this boy today that I thought was very kind and gentle. But then I realized that the only things we have in common only have to do with out culture, and that on a personal level I just couldn't connect. It felt ackward from the beginning. AND THEN he keeps asking if I have a boyfriend. I say, for the last time, no I don't. Then he asks, well what about me? I begin to feel very uncomfortable and say "Um I dont know. yr nice I guess". He then asks if we could hold hands, and of course I make it clear that I just dont feel comfortable.
He seemed so shy and gentle when I first met him a while ago, and now all of a sudden he pushes me to be his girlfriend? He said that he's never had a real girlfriend before and that I'm so different from all the other middle eastern girls he grew up around (he lived in kuwait and went to school in iran for a time). He also said that he's kinda alone in this country and he'd like to have someone to "share things" with. You could imagine how strange I was beginning to feel. I really didn't see any of this pushiness/ needyness coming.
This is the second time that this has happened in the past 30 days. A month ago, there was another boy I went out with ONCE. After that, he kept asking to date me more and that he likes me and that even if i hated him he would still think im really amazing. He kept asking me to hang out with him because he was lonely on that specific day. As with the other guy, he really didnt care about how I felt about the whole thing until I straight up told him that I didnt want a relationship and that hes coming off way too strong.
Why dont these boys I attract ever consider how I feel about being in a relationship? Its always about what they want, they think its okay for them to be really pushy. And i dont like needy boys! it just shows such a lack of character and dependence. whyyy am i attracting boys that are clingy and dont consider how i feel? am i doing something wrong? or maybe im just too sweet and understanding and guys think they can just be so forward with me.
i feel drained and weird, im gonna go take a nap and eat some cake and hope ill feel better.