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"You're either really smart or really strange"
Ha. Either/or is it?
I cut my hair. Incredibly short. Unintentionally, mind you. But it's short. And, maybe it's because I am coming back up from breaking down, but I feel like I have so many opportunities. Especially now. I can be anyone I want to be. I can do anything I want to do. There are so many branches in whatever road I am on now. And I'm sure I don't even see half of them. Who I am is my choice. And I don't have to explain myself either. I feel like a fortune cookie saying this...but, with all the different places my little road takes me, everytime I fall into a hole and break down, when I get past that, things are clearer for a while. Sure, you can never escape the pitfalls and dangers that are inevitable. And all I can do is accept that things aren't always going to be pretty, and when they're not, I keep learning ways to get things back to being pretty. And keeping it that way for as long as I can. And then I lose myself again and need to find myself. Which is a good excuse for self exploration....wanting things to be pretty again.
My downfall is that I want things to be explained. Because I know there's a reason for everything. I need to learn that although there's always a reason, that reason can't always be explained. Sometimes I have to find out, sometimes I will never find out. Sometimes no one will ever know why. And that pisses me off. Someone has to know. I guess I could just dedicate my life to search for those who know the whys to my questions that I ask...and everyday there are so many new questions. That would be a tedious life. not for me.....I have to just learn things. And accept them. And deal with it.
Ha. Either/or is it?
I cut my hair. Incredibly short. Unintentionally, mind you. But it's short. And, maybe it's because I am coming back up from breaking down, but I feel like I have so many opportunities. Especially now. I can be anyone I want to be. I can do anything I want to do. There are so many branches in whatever road I am on now. And I'm sure I don't even see half of them. Who I am is my choice. And I don't have to explain myself either. I feel like a fortune cookie saying this...but, with all the different places my little road takes me, everytime I fall into a hole and break down, when I get past that, things are clearer for a while. Sure, you can never escape the pitfalls and dangers that are inevitable. And all I can do is accept that things aren't always going to be pretty, and when they're not, I keep learning ways to get things back to being pretty. And keeping it that way for as long as I can. And then I lose myself again and need to find myself. Which is a good excuse for self exploration....wanting things to be pretty again.
My downfall is that I want things to be explained. Because I know there's a reason for everything. I need to learn that although there's always a reason, that reason can't always be explained. Sometimes I have to find out, sometimes I will never find out. Sometimes no one will ever know why. And that pisses me off. Someone has to know. I guess I could just dedicate my life to search for those who know the whys to my questions that I ask...and everyday there are so many new questions. That would be a tedious life. not for me.....I have to just learn things. And accept them. And deal with it.