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i had an amazing time in pensacola this past weekend with so many amazing people that i have found to love so much now lol like seriously i havent had that much fun in a long time..i want to do it all over again! im going to jersey and new york over winter break! im so excited! and mardi gras in february! gonna be sooo insane! just thought i would update since i havent in a while...it feels really good to be happy right now, like im fricken proud of myself..thanksgiving is next week, im driving to Port Charlotte (near Naples) on Wednesday to my grandparents house and will be in boca friday till sunday..im scared to see my grandpa because his cancer came back and hes not doing too good, they cant do anymore surgeries and its spread alot so basically hes dying at the age of like 60 or so, hes doing chemo again but thats just prolonging his time not making him better...its so scary, i wanted him to always be there for all the important stuff in my life, hes too young, he should be there, he could be there...ahh okay so my really happy phase just went down alot so im gonna stop talking about it before i get too emotional...if anyone wants to hang out when im home give me a call