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So I'm officialy 18...it's pretty awesome...my birthday just kinda came and went so fast. Went out to dinner Sat/ night w/ Steve, Liz and Christi...we went to the 99 in Auburn...and Steve being the guy he is, tells the waiter as he's seating us "it's this girls birthday!" super! so later on me and Steve were sitting there and I was texting Tommy, all of a sudden a ton of people start singing...I was so embarresed. I hate being the center of attention!! it was cute though..I love my friends <3
It was awesome, 3 in the morning the day before my birthday I wake up to Christis cell phone ringing, and decide to go downstairs and pee...so Christi follows me down, and BAM "holy shit". Christi had the kitchen completely decorated for me! it was awesome! all pink too! she did an amazing job, and she put so much work into it which means alot :) I didn't get to see Tommy :( he was wigged sick...wigged, wigged sick...so it sucked, because there was nothing I could really do about it. So that ruined the first part of my day, oh well...so then I went to the movies in Millbury w/ my rents and my little siblings and we watched "RV"...it was cute, could've been better. so then me and my mom went earring shopping :) I LOVE earrings. And then we headed home...Nathan came over and hung around, and then travis came over later w/ Anthony...so it was cool, got some awesome presents :) I love presents. lol. So yea...Anthonys present to me was either paying for a tattoo or a peircing...I chose a peircing, so I'm going to get my cartalidge done on the 20th...I'm nervous! I'm going with Liz, Tommy, Anthony and Christi and who ever else wants to come...I'm excited, it's gonna look awesome! worth the pain I think, maybe.
So I met this woman where I work...and she was driving this gorgoeus silver Subaru forester...and we started talking about it, and it ends up she's selling it within the next 2 monhs because she's having another baby and it won't hold 3 baby seats...so I gave her my number and name, and omg, if it works out, I could have it....that would be amazing, cross your fingers and piggies for me!!
This weekend is not coming as quick as I'd like it to. I haven't seen Tommy for almost 2 weeks, and it stinks. We're down to seeing eachother twice a month because we're poor :( arrrr. I can't wait, I need a break from life and I need to see my guy.
I think I'm bi-polar...either that or just really hormonal. I feel one way this day, and completely different the next. I hate my manager, I like my manager. I go up and down emotionally, and I've shut down alot lately...supposedly it's a "defense mechanism" to not feel any anxiety...sadness, pain, things like that.
I have a new love for Queen, and Fleetwood Mac...it's the result of working 5 hour days with the Oldies station on...I love it. random I know.
It's really awesome how you can have all the money in the world, buy anything you want, excpet love, pure, true love.
I could be dirt poor, sure I wouldn't like it, but I believe to truly love, and to be truly loved is better than ANY amount of money. It's what makes life worth living...to find that kind of love.
I'm scared for the future...how I'm going to handle things..emotionally, mentally. I've seen so much, been thru so much crap. I just want to be able to handle things the right way. I know I have no control over my future, I think thats why I don't drive myself nuts. I know it's all in Gods hands...as shitty of a person I am, I know he's watching out for me, and my path in life. I may miss out on some awesome blessings because I'm so freaking stubborn. But thats life, I have to fall on my face to learn.
I have become somewhat of a girly girl. the exact thing I despise...or used to. I got into the car after church last Sunday and my sister goes " you look like one of those girls I never want to be" something along those lines. I love pink. that was never me...it's freaky. But I'm comfortable with me and that all that matters.
Guster is tomrrow night!!!! it's going to be awesome :)
So yea, I'm bloated and feel 10 pounds heavier, and this was the most random entry.
I'm out \m/
It was awesome, 3 in the morning the day before my birthday I wake up to Christis cell phone ringing, and decide to go downstairs and pee...so Christi follows me down, and BAM "holy shit". Christi had the kitchen completely decorated for me! it was awesome! all pink too! she did an amazing job, and she put so much work into it which means alot :) I didn't get to see Tommy :( he was wigged sick...wigged, wigged sick...so it sucked, because there was nothing I could really do about it. So that ruined the first part of my day, oh well...so then I went to the movies in Millbury w/ my rents and my little siblings and we watched "RV"...it was cute, could've been better. so then me and my mom went earring shopping :) I LOVE earrings. And then we headed home...Nathan came over and hung around, and then travis came over later w/ Anthony...so it was cool, got some awesome presents :) I love presents. lol. So yea...Anthonys present to me was either paying for a tattoo or a peircing...I chose a peircing, so I'm going to get my cartalidge done on the 20th...I'm nervous! I'm going with Liz, Tommy, Anthony and Christi and who ever else wants to come...I'm excited, it's gonna look awesome! worth the pain I think, maybe.
So I met this woman where I work...and she was driving this gorgoeus silver Subaru forester...and we started talking about it, and it ends up she's selling it within the next 2 monhs because she's having another baby and it won't hold 3 baby seats...so I gave her my number and name, and omg, if it works out, I could have it....that would be amazing, cross your fingers and piggies for me!!
This weekend is not coming as quick as I'd like it to. I haven't seen Tommy for almost 2 weeks, and it stinks. We're down to seeing eachother twice a month because we're poor :( arrrr. I can't wait, I need a break from life and I need to see my guy.
I think I'm bi-polar...either that or just really hormonal. I feel one way this day, and completely different the next. I hate my manager, I like my manager. I go up and down emotionally, and I've shut down alot lately...supposedly it's a "defense mechanism" to not feel any anxiety...sadness, pain, things like that.
I have a new love for Queen, and Fleetwood Mac...it's the result of working 5 hour days with the Oldies station on...I love it. random I know.
It's really awesome how you can have all the money in the world, buy anything you want, excpet love, pure, true love.
I could be dirt poor, sure I wouldn't like it, but I believe to truly love, and to be truly loved is better than ANY amount of money. It's what makes life worth living...to find that kind of love.
I'm scared for the future...how I'm going to handle things..emotionally, mentally. I've seen so much, been thru so much crap. I just want to be able to handle things the right way. I know I have no control over my future, I think thats why I don't drive myself nuts. I know it's all in Gods hands...as shitty of a person I am, I know he's watching out for me, and my path in life. I may miss out on some awesome blessings because I'm so freaking stubborn. But thats life, I have to fall on my face to learn.
I have become somewhat of a girly girl. the exact thing I despise...or used to. I got into the car after church last Sunday and my sister goes " you look like one of those girls I never want to be" something along those lines. I love pink. that was never me...it's freaky. But I'm comfortable with me and that all that matters.
Guster is tomrrow night!!!! it's going to be awesome :)
So yea, I'm bloated and feel 10 pounds heavier, and this was the most random entry.
I'm out \m/