Jun 06, 2006 11:40
Sleep seems to be escaping me lately. I figured after I went to the chiropractor yesterday I'd be able to sleep better. But it was like the second I laid down last night, I was itchy and antsy and had to get up again. No fun. I just wish I knew why that was happening. I also discovered that all the movies we now have at our house are old and boring. Becky took all her movies, so that sucks. I've also discovered how much I hate not having my own car. Since Maggie has been working everyday, I'm left without a car after she leaves, which means I'm having to get up early and run errands and such. No big deal, but I would be so much more productive if I could get a few little things done during the day. Like today, I went to get a haircut, while it was an hour wait and she needed to be leaving for work in an hour and a half. Gah!! I'm getting frustrated with not working and not making money and not having my own car and being made to be at home by myself forever. Before this summer I thought it would be no big deal for me to move back home after I graduate, at least til I get back on my feet, but if it stays like this, I might die. Becky is never here and even though she was usually in her room, it was a buffer at least. And then Maggie is ALWAYS gone with friends and Jason and well... that means once again, I don't have a car. I want to go down to Mankato in a couple weeks and spend the weekend with Ryan and maybe see Chels if she's around, but I don't think my Dad will let me take Rusty and I'm not super comfortable driving Mom's car.
Oh yeah, my stupid fucking uncle is coming into town for Father's Day weekend, the same weekend of Becky and Jeremy's housewarming / birthday party and my little sister's graduation party. So as Becky observed last night, he's ruined another event in our lives, way to fucking be. And I know I shouldn't be so hostile, it is my uncle, but seriously, he's such an idiot and he makes me so angry I don't even want to see him. It would be ok with me if he didn't come. Plus then my grandpa will be all nice about him and get after my mom about being mad at him. And she rightfully is. We are the ones who take care of my grandpa ALL THE TIME. My uncle breezes in and out of town for one weekend in what, 5, 6, 7 years and he's all great while my mom is horrible. Not to mention my grandpa is quick to "borrow" (aka my uncle takes without any REAL intention of paying it back) my uncle money, but heaven forbid he treat his kids equally and give my parents the same amount of money for something ligitimate. Family matters... boo! And that doesn't even begin my rant for my mother which I'll save for another time. lol.
Dad got a good report from the doctor's office. He seems to be doing well, but still takes it easier than he did before "the incident." And my aunt is doing well in her new place. I feel bad that I haven't seen her for a couple of weeks, but what gives?? Her mind is getting worse and worse, but every once in a while she'll surprise us with something she remembers. But it is hard to see her slipping away. The worst days of all is when she knows she doesn't remember anything. It makes her so sad and it is hard to watch.
I'm moving back into my old room, which had now been painted green. Its not totally cleaned out, but becky is working on it. I got to put clothes in the closet and in one of the dressers!! Hooray! I can't wait to move into the apartment and have a big closet again. So yeah. That's my life as it stands. Check ya laters!