I could do with some hope.
With a busy year looming ahead of me. where i am to be responsible with money and time and fit so much in.
i really want to do it right this time and fit it all in i need to spend less time with my laptop and more time with books. I sit here and think how far i ve come in a year? two years? every year i am sat in a room thinking about packing with a year of unknowns ahead. what will i be like in a year?
The more i live the more i realize what a hopeless romantic i am and how unromantic the world is. I guess i could use some hope right now, that people just arnt always how i experience them to be, no one is spontaneous or does anything outrageous. bloody apathy!
I guess on of the big revelations this year has been about places and people. i now know where my home is and it isnt the island anymore . I know what real friends are and they arnt really on the island with the exceptions of ami and sarah (han and mel dont count as they dont live here anymore)
luke pisses me off. he seems to be unaware of what a selfish dick he is. he seems so happy to take from people but very unwilling to give much. people are so willing to bend over backwards for him yet he is so fucking unappreciative of it. no one does that kind of thing for me i have to get places under my own steam. frankly out every islander i know hes the one who deserves to stay here. sounds harsh but if he wants to make it in the real world he needs to seriously grow the fuck up and thats coming from someone 4 years his junior. it really upsets me that once again i got drawn into putting so much energy into making someone elses dream happen and they dont even notice or care. fuck that. I am going to focus on my own now kcsa presidency getting the krap presidency getting fit and getting 1 st this year.
plur
triz xxx
i really want to do it right this time and fit it all in i need to spend less time with my laptop and more time with books. I sit here and think how far i ve come in a year? two years? every year i am sat in a room thinking about packing with a year of unknowns ahead. what will i be like in a year?
The more i live the more i realize what a hopeless romantic i am and how unromantic the world is. I guess i could use some hope right now, that people just arnt always how i experience them to be, no one is spontaneous or does anything outrageous. bloody apathy!
I guess on of the big revelations this year has been about places and people. i now know where my home is and it isnt the island anymore . I know what real friends are and they arnt really on the island with the exceptions of ami and sarah (han and mel dont count as they dont live here anymore)
luke pisses me off. he seems to be unaware of what a selfish dick he is. he seems so happy to take from people but very unwilling to give much. people are so willing to bend over backwards for him yet he is so fucking unappreciative of it. no one does that kind of thing for me i have to get places under my own steam. frankly out every islander i know hes the one who deserves to stay here. sounds harsh but if he wants to make it in the real world he needs to seriously grow the fuck up and thats coming from someone 4 years his junior. it really upsets me that once again i got drawn into putting so much energy into making someone elses dream happen and they dont even notice or care. fuck that. I am going to focus on my own now kcsa presidency getting the krap presidency getting fit and getting 1 st this year.
plur
triz xxx