relationship issue
so at this point, i am so confused about what i want. There's this guy, of course there is always a guy with me. anyways, there is a guy that i know through a friend from a couple of years ago who is in the armed forces stationed in South Carolina. He has always be forward like cuddling and such since the day i met him. Which i like a guy to be aggressive a little bit. So anyways, i have talked to this guy so many times on the internet, and he knows me and i kind of now him. My only issue is he seems like he's serious about hanging out and spending time with me when he comes back up. then he wanted me to call him, which i tried doing, but something went wrong. ugh. i just don't understand, here's a guy that at first i didn't like whatsoever, but now i'm kind of happy someone is interested in me. It's been over a year since i dated someone and quite frankly, i need a boyfriend. I don't know if i should wait around the holidays when he comes up to see what's going to happen or not wait around and find someone. I feel so unattractive and my self esteem is an extra low, which is another down side to this whole thing. i guess i just want someone to tell me what to do, or like my heart to jump out and be like, "this is what you want, trust me." If anyone has any comforting words, i would really appreciate it.