"I believe that somewhere there's more to me."
Yeah, I'm just kind of here right now. I don't really know what's going on. I'm confused and I haven't felt entirely like myself for a little bit. Jess and I have had a lot of late night conversations lately and I've been spilling things that I didn't think I would. Things that do not need to be said to her, but to another person.
Graduation is coming up so quickly. I can't believe that it's February already. Every day I get closer to May brings so many different, confusing feelings...
1. The end of student teaching. (Oh, thank God. I will be so glad when this is all over.)
2. My Disney internship. (I've been waiting for this for over two years and it's so close that I can almost feel it.)
3. Summer vacation. (Time to go home and spend time with Mike and Katie...and hang out with the local college crowd.)
4. Graduation.
As happy as I am going to be done with college...because it means going to Disney...I'm not ready to leave yet. College is so different from home for me. At home, I seriously have about six honest to God real friends...Mike, Katie, Justine, Anna, Roger, Davey. And none of them live right around the corner. On campus, I can walk into the next room, down the hall, or to another hall and hang out with all of these amazing people. And I know that when I leave that I'm going to make the promise of "let's keep in touch!" with so many people and...honestly...it probably won't happen...except on Facebook.
I don't want to leave the APs. Those boys mean the world to me...every single one of them. I don't know where I would be right now if it weren't for their love and support. And it kills me that I won't be able to come up for Sis pledging in the fall because I'll be in Florida. My weekends revolve around going to the house and hanging out with everyone...my brothers and my sisters. The best moments of my senior year have happened with the APs and mostly in that house. I laugh, thinking of the crazy times and the stuff that has gone on there.
I am so proud of the new guys. With every pledge class that comes in, I get closer and closer. I want to be around next year to see them help the new guys through pledging. This year, I have been thanked so many times for being such a "hard core sis" and it feels wonderful. I would do anything for those boys...and I know that they would do anything for me.
I cannot wait for the 24 Hour Walk and for AP Formal. Aptivation last night was wonderful...and things are only going to get better.
The earliest day I can get my Disney letter is this Wednesday. My fingers are crossed.
...
I miss Mike. We've been dating for over 5 1/2 years and I still don't believe it. He's been going through so much shit lately because of St. Ignatius and, frankly, I've felt like bombing the school at times. Telling him that he never officially graduated four years after he did...signed diploma in hand and financial aid/FAFSA bills coming in the mail. No matter how long we've been together, it doesn't change how much I miss him. Talking on the phone is fine, but it's not helping. Mike has never been a big talker...us talking on the phone is basically me talking and him listening.
I want nothing more right now than to just hold him and never let go.
If I lay here,
if I just lay here,
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?
Graduation is coming up so quickly. I can't believe that it's February already. Every day I get closer to May brings so many different, confusing feelings...
1. The end of student teaching. (Oh, thank God. I will be so glad when this is all over.)
2. My Disney internship. (I've been waiting for this for over two years and it's so close that I can almost feel it.)
3. Summer vacation. (Time to go home and spend time with Mike and Katie...and hang out with the local college crowd.)
4. Graduation.
As happy as I am going to be done with college...because it means going to Disney...I'm not ready to leave yet. College is so different from home for me. At home, I seriously have about six honest to God real friends...Mike, Katie, Justine, Anna, Roger, Davey. And none of them live right around the corner. On campus, I can walk into the next room, down the hall, or to another hall and hang out with all of these amazing people. And I know that when I leave that I'm going to make the promise of "let's keep in touch!" with so many people and...honestly...it probably won't happen...except on Facebook.
I don't want to leave the APs. Those boys mean the world to me...every single one of them. I don't know where I would be right now if it weren't for their love and support. And it kills me that I won't be able to come up for Sis pledging in the fall because I'll be in Florida. My weekends revolve around going to the house and hanging out with everyone...my brothers and my sisters. The best moments of my senior year have happened with the APs and mostly in that house. I laugh, thinking of the crazy times and the stuff that has gone on there.
I am so proud of the new guys. With every pledge class that comes in, I get closer and closer. I want to be around next year to see them help the new guys through pledging. This year, I have been thanked so many times for being such a "hard core sis" and it feels wonderful. I would do anything for those boys...and I know that they would do anything for me.
I cannot wait for the 24 Hour Walk and for AP Formal. Aptivation last night was wonderful...and things are only going to get better.
The earliest day I can get my Disney letter is this Wednesday. My fingers are crossed.
...
I miss Mike. We've been dating for over 5 1/2 years and I still don't believe it. He's been going through so much shit lately because of St. Ignatius and, frankly, I've felt like bombing the school at times. Telling him that he never officially graduated four years after he did...signed diploma in hand and financial aid/FAFSA bills coming in the mail. No matter how long we've been together, it doesn't change how much I miss him. Talking on the phone is fine, but it's not helping. Mike has never been a big talker...us talking on the phone is basically me talking and him listening.
I want nothing more right now than to just hold him and never let go.
If I lay here,
if I just lay here,
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?