Day 7
What is it about today?
I had lunch at Babs with Robert where we chatted with the waiters for a while. Around 3 I went over to Alison's house to talk to her about the orchestra business and the ASOL fellowship. She walked me through some of the questions that will be asked in the interviews and we decided that I'm not ready for it yet. Then I spent a while thinking and not really knowing what to say and it was awkward. I was there until the dinner party, where I wouldn't really know anyone, but there was nothing more to talk about. Plus, she had put her cats away in a room because there was going to be a party.
So then I was tired and disillusioned when the muckety muck guests arrived and I had to schmooze with a bunch of strangers. Robert did come, so I wasn't totally on my own, but he kept running out of the room and leaving me to talk to whoever (who I didn't know). I got a call from the Oregon DA's office during the party which I'll have to return tomorrow and that put me on edge. So I was stressed about that as well as feeling totally unqualified for the fellowship and talking to strangers and tired. I ate my plate of food, though I didn't have any appetite left, and finally Robert decided it was time to go home. I debriefed him about my talk with Alison and how dejected I was feeling and then called the parents to tell them how things are going.
I just got a very long email from a friend about a fellow who did her wrong and now I feel even sicker to my stomach. Today really hasn't been my day. Robert's out visiting a friend, so all I have left to do this evening is call Matt and then go to bed early (well, earlier than 3).
I had lunch at Babs with Robert where we chatted with the waiters for a while. Around 3 I went over to Alison's house to talk to her about the orchestra business and the ASOL fellowship. She walked me through some of the questions that will be asked in the interviews and we decided that I'm not ready for it yet. Then I spent a while thinking and not really knowing what to say and it was awkward. I was there until the dinner party, where I wouldn't really know anyone, but there was nothing more to talk about. Plus, she had put her cats away in a room because there was going to be a party.
So then I was tired and disillusioned when the muckety muck guests arrived and I had to schmooze with a bunch of strangers. Robert did come, so I wasn't totally on my own, but he kept running out of the room and leaving me to talk to whoever (who I didn't know). I got a call from the Oregon DA's office during the party which I'll have to return tomorrow and that put me on edge. So I was stressed about that as well as feeling totally unqualified for the fellowship and talking to strangers and tired. I ate my plate of food, though I didn't have any appetite left, and finally Robert decided it was time to go home. I debriefed him about my talk with Alison and how dejected I was feeling and then called the parents to tell them how things are going.
I just got a very long email from a friend about a fellow who did her wrong and now I feel even sicker to my stomach. Today really hasn't been my day. Robert's out visiting a friend, so all I have left to do this evening is call Matt and then go to bed early (well, earlier than 3).