Maybe i am stupid....
It seems like everytime he and i get into an arrgument lately i could be very calm about things no matter what the subject is and he could just out of now where start yelling at me. He says its because that's just what he does when he gets mad. Now i do that too but some how i can control the volume of my voice and my temper unless i just can't take it anymore. On top of all that he keeps making me feel like i should believe every damn thing that he says. I'm sorry but he did that to himself. I NEVER told him to go and do what he did nor did i influence him or anything like that. Yet some how i always somehow indirectly get the blame for it. I'm sick of feeling like all of this is my fault. It's not my fault at all, but yet i feel like i drove him to do this. I'm sick of constantly thinking about all the lies i was told. BUT most of all i'm sick of taking all the blame for this and going out of my way trying to prove to him that i'm here to stay. Shouldn't it be the other way around?
For those of you who don't know me and don't know what's going on don't expect me to explain it... if you use context clues and read my other entries then you'll probably figure it out if you're smart enough.
For those few of you that do know what's going on and do know me well feel free to comment.
Now for those few assholes that think they can say whatever they want to(b.t.w. i know who that asshole was on my last journal so i'm not too worried about them anymore) but for the rest of the assholes out there you can post whatever you want too but just don't expect me to give a shit about what you think.....
HAVE A NICE DAY.... =)
For those of you who don't know me and don't know what's going on don't expect me to explain it... if you use context clues and read my other entries then you'll probably figure it out if you're smart enough.
For those few of you that do know what's going on and do know me well feel free to comment.
Now for those few assholes that think they can say whatever they want to(b.t.w. i know who that asshole was on my last journal so i'm not too worried about them anymore) but for the rest of the assholes out there you can post whatever you want too but just don't expect me to give a shit about what you think.....
HAVE A NICE DAY.... =)