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Urggh. I just found a picture of me with such lovely toned abs in a photoshoot with Hangar25 probably about 3 years ago. Oh how I miss those abs. I'm just big and wobbly round the middle now. My mother warned me that when I hit my 20s I'd start expanding but I never thought it would happen... but no.. the last 3 years I've spent growing outwards.
I want to be skinny again. I hated being underweight at the time but underweight models get all the work... I'm a big blob now, people see photos like that on my model profiles and think I'd be good to work with but I don't have the heart to reply and turn up as wobbly model who takes a week in photoshop to look presentable, but I don't have the heart to delete my profiles either 'just in case'...
I wish I could be arsed to exercise properly. Lanky keeps yelling at me about what I eat but I think it's really just lack of exercise more than poor diet...
If the magic enthusiasm faeries could pay me a visit to make exercise seem doable that would be grand. If not, the magic 'I don't give a fuck if I'm fat' faeries would do to stop me feeling like a lard-arse.
I've been underweight as long as I can remember, being squidgey in the middle just ain't me.
Look at the icon... see the ABS??? Abs of steel they was.
I want to be skinny again. I hated being underweight at the time but underweight models get all the work... I'm a big blob now, people see photos like that on my model profiles and think I'd be good to work with but I don't have the heart to reply and turn up as wobbly model who takes a week in photoshop to look presentable, but I don't have the heart to delete my profiles either 'just in case'...
I wish I could be arsed to exercise properly. Lanky keeps yelling at me about what I eat but I think it's really just lack of exercise more than poor diet...
If the magic enthusiasm faeries could pay me a visit to make exercise seem doable that would be grand. If not, the magic 'I don't give a fuck if I'm fat' faeries would do to stop me feeling like a lard-arse.
I've been underweight as long as I can remember, being squidgey in the middle just ain't me.
Look at the icon... see the ABS??? Abs of steel they was.