Marc
Things have gone to hell in a handbag the last couple of days. If you don't wanna read about me pissin' and moanin', I'd suggest that you skip this post.
Marc's seriously gone and done it this time, and I don't think that there's any convincing me out of it. I'm done with Marc. I quit. I'm so sick and tired of his fucking shit! He tells me that he's going to stay clean. He tells me that he would never do anything to make me leave him. I now have 4 people confirming that Marc's been doing shit again. And behind my back. He came home the other night, and I just KNEW that he was high. It was more than obvious. He keeps denying it. Who'd blame him? But I'm not putting up with him takin' off in the middle of the night anymore. I'm not putting up with the lying, and the fact that it seems like I have to be responsible for him. I'm always there to support him, but it seems like he can't be there to support me. I've just gotten to the point where I know that I can't trust him anymore. Couldn't trust him in the first place. He bitches and complains to me that I should believe someone I love over people who tell me that he's been doin' shit. Yeah, maybe I should, but you know, people who I thought I loved, have lied to me before as well. What's to say that he's not just like them? He could be fucking me over. He has no credibility. He says that he'll go do UA's for me, but I know that if just one of them comes back dirty, that he'll be sent back to Kansas. I don't want to be the one responsible for that. As far as I'm concerned right now, I'm going to be looking for a small place of my own, and that'll be that. I love him, I love his family, I just don't want to take the chance at being hurt again. And as my dad pointed out to me, it's only been three months. We shouldn't have jumped into an engagement in the first place. It's true. It's so stupid that I even agreed to it in the first place. Yeah, I've known him for forever and a day, and I thought that maybe we could make it. But the more and more I look at it, I can't spend the rest of my life being suspicious of him and his actions. I just hope I don't get him or his family to hate me for this. Reanne seems ok with it, but I don't know anything about Mom or Dad King. Beth probably wouldn't give a rats ass either way. I'm just done.
Megan
Marc's seriously gone and done it this time, and I don't think that there's any convincing me out of it. I'm done with Marc. I quit. I'm so sick and tired of his fucking shit! He tells me that he's going to stay clean. He tells me that he would never do anything to make me leave him. I now have 4 people confirming that Marc's been doing shit again. And behind my back. He came home the other night, and I just KNEW that he was high. It was more than obvious. He keeps denying it. Who'd blame him? But I'm not putting up with him takin' off in the middle of the night anymore. I'm not putting up with the lying, and the fact that it seems like I have to be responsible for him. I'm always there to support him, but it seems like he can't be there to support me. I've just gotten to the point where I know that I can't trust him anymore. Couldn't trust him in the first place. He bitches and complains to me that I should believe someone I love over people who tell me that he's been doin' shit. Yeah, maybe I should, but you know, people who I thought I loved, have lied to me before as well. What's to say that he's not just like them? He could be fucking me over. He has no credibility. He says that he'll go do UA's for me, but I know that if just one of them comes back dirty, that he'll be sent back to Kansas. I don't want to be the one responsible for that. As far as I'm concerned right now, I'm going to be looking for a small place of my own, and that'll be that. I love him, I love his family, I just don't want to take the chance at being hurt again. And as my dad pointed out to me, it's only been three months. We shouldn't have jumped into an engagement in the first place. It's true. It's so stupid that I even agreed to it in the first place. Yeah, I've known him for forever and a day, and I thought that maybe we could make it. But the more and more I look at it, I can't spend the rest of my life being suspicious of him and his actions. I just hope I don't get him or his family to hate me for this. Reanne seems ok with it, but I don't know anything about Mom or Dad King. Beth probably wouldn't give a rats ass either way. I'm just done.
Megan