New Mommy and Relationships
As of 2:14am, January 29th, 2005, I'm offically a mommy! It's very exciting to me. My lil boy is just more than adorable. I thought that it'd would be so hard for me the first couple of weeks, but I've been really lucky with Kristopher. He's such a lil angel. I'm waiting for him to grow out of that. I keep expecting things to get harder and worse. Mind you, it's not all easy, but it's better than what I expected. Now all I have to do is get my feet completely under me and start supporting the two of us on my own. That could take a while, but I'm going to try. Mom's offered to help me out a little bit. I pay her rent and take care of my own food, and I can stay here with her. When Nathan moves out though, my time is up here. Hopefully it won't take me too long to get out of here before that. But I really am enjoying "mommydom" so far.
As to the rest of whatever's going on...I have no clue. I get the feeling that Dan is no longer interested in me or our relationship. It seems like it's all coming to an end. It makes me really sad, but I can't say I don't see it coming. Can I blame him? I'm not really sure how I feel about it exactly. I care a great deal about him, and would rather things not come to an end, but I realize that if it does, it does. There's nothing I can really do about it except deal with it. We'll see what happens. He might be coming to see me tomorrow, but I'm not sure yet, because I guess Elyse is really sick. Poor kid. Maybe I can get more of a feel of what's going on then. I just don't want him to think that he's obligated to come see me, though I think that it would cheer me up a great deal. I miss him.
Well, I don't know what else really to write. I just wanted to say that Kris is now here and vent a lil on relationship shit. So have fun everyone!
~~Faerie~~
As to the rest of whatever's going on...I have no clue. I get the feeling that Dan is no longer interested in me or our relationship. It seems like it's all coming to an end. It makes me really sad, but I can't say I don't see it coming. Can I blame him? I'm not really sure how I feel about it exactly. I care a great deal about him, and would rather things not come to an end, but I realize that if it does, it does. There's nothing I can really do about it except deal with it. We'll see what happens. He might be coming to see me tomorrow, but I'm not sure yet, because I guess Elyse is really sick. Poor kid. Maybe I can get more of a feel of what's going on then. I just don't want him to think that he's obligated to come see me, though I think that it would cheer me up a great deal. I miss him.
Well, I don't know what else really to write. I just wanted to say that Kris is now here and vent a lil on relationship shit. So have fun everyone!
~~Faerie~~