frustration
so I'm having trouble breathing and coughing up a lung like every ten minutes, again. Not as bad as it was when I had that chest cold, but it's been doing this off and on ever since. I don't think my lungs ever recovered from that infection. The asthma I have tends to be triggered by chest illnesses, and that one lasted so long that the asthma just kinda didn't go away afterward. Now it's almost constant. Can't be anywhere around anything like cigarettes or incense or cleaners or smog or. . .
you get the idea. really getting on my nerves. I've had little bouts of this before, but for crying out loud I've played sports my whole life without a problem and smoked for years without a reaction, now I can't go twenty minutes sitting quietly without having an attack, let alone doing something. Can't sleep for more than half an hour, maybe an hour before I have to sit up because I can't breathe. All night long. And it takes me forever to get to a point where I can lie down again without triggering another attack. spent half the night last night sitting against the wall with my head on a pillow on the little bedside table, cause that was the only way I could sleep. And now I'm starting to get sick to my stomach. Don't know why. Happens during really bad coughing fits. Maybe the lack of oxygen or the stress of coughing so much. I dunno.
This can't be good for the baby. Not getting enough sleep, losing the food I eat, not getting enough air. Not to mention the stress in general. Though I'm trying really hard not to let this stress me out. They say constant stress in a pregnant woman can cause bad things to happen to the baby, like low birth-weight (and the baby's already a little behind size-wise), and even things like diabetes and depression later in life. I will not be responsible for causing that. So I'm doing what I can about the stress, and just hoping the rest will clear up. I can only use the inhaler three or four times a day, any more is bad for the baby, and they can't do anything about it until after I give birth. Can't do a chest x-ray or put me on asthma meds or anything. So all I can do is wait it out.
Don't know what I'd do without Mia. Probably curl into a little ball and cry all day. But I think the only reason I'm doing as well as I am is because of him. All the little things he does.
Next appointment is this wednesday. Have to do a glucose test thing to make sure I don't have prenatal diabetes. Don't think I do. I've had hypoglycemia long enough to recognize when my blood sugar levels are off, and I don't think they are. But it's a standard test for the seven month mark, and I have to take it. God-awful sugar drink. bleh. but at least I don't have to do the stupid three-hour one. Just go drink the glucose stuff, go to my appointment, got back to the lab and let them draw my blood, thank you, have a nice day.
*sigh*
gods I feel like crap. headache and dizzy from not being able to breathe, chest hurts in ways I can't even describe, constant low-level panic from not being able to fully inhale, and every muscle from my shoulders to my hips hurts so bad from coughing that my eyes water every time I cough, and to top it off, one of my stupid ribs got pulled out of place, so my back and sides are killing me, all the time, and there's not a thing I or anyone else can do about it until after I give birth, except get a back support and take tylenol. I don't think I've ever felt this sick without actually being sick!
so that's my bitching for the day. All in all, this pregnancy is going really well, but I'm sleep deprived and decided to take it out on the computer, rather than the people I care about.
And yes, I still think it's more than worth it.
-Leah
PS-don't tell me to feel better. if I could, I would.
you get the idea. really getting on my nerves. I've had little bouts of this before, but for crying out loud I've played sports my whole life without a problem and smoked for years without a reaction, now I can't go twenty minutes sitting quietly without having an attack, let alone doing something. Can't sleep for more than half an hour, maybe an hour before I have to sit up because I can't breathe. All night long. And it takes me forever to get to a point where I can lie down again without triggering another attack. spent half the night last night sitting against the wall with my head on a pillow on the little bedside table, cause that was the only way I could sleep. And now I'm starting to get sick to my stomach. Don't know why. Happens during really bad coughing fits. Maybe the lack of oxygen or the stress of coughing so much. I dunno.
This can't be good for the baby. Not getting enough sleep, losing the food I eat, not getting enough air. Not to mention the stress in general. Though I'm trying really hard not to let this stress me out. They say constant stress in a pregnant woman can cause bad things to happen to the baby, like low birth-weight (and the baby's already a little behind size-wise), and even things like diabetes and depression later in life. I will not be responsible for causing that. So I'm doing what I can about the stress, and just hoping the rest will clear up. I can only use the inhaler three or four times a day, any more is bad for the baby, and they can't do anything about it until after I give birth. Can't do a chest x-ray or put me on asthma meds or anything. So all I can do is wait it out.
Don't know what I'd do without Mia. Probably curl into a little ball and cry all day. But I think the only reason I'm doing as well as I am is because of him. All the little things he does.
Next appointment is this wednesday. Have to do a glucose test thing to make sure I don't have prenatal diabetes. Don't think I do. I've had hypoglycemia long enough to recognize when my blood sugar levels are off, and I don't think they are. But it's a standard test for the seven month mark, and I have to take it. God-awful sugar drink. bleh. but at least I don't have to do the stupid three-hour one. Just go drink the glucose stuff, go to my appointment, got back to the lab and let them draw my blood, thank you, have a nice day.
*sigh*
gods I feel like crap. headache and dizzy from not being able to breathe, chest hurts in ways I can't even describe, constant low-level panic from not being able to fully inhale, and every muscle from my shoulders to my hips hurts so bad from coughing that my eyes water every time I cough, and to top it off, one of my stupid ribs got pulled out of place, so my back and sides are killing me, all the time, and there's not a thing I or anyone else can do about it until after I give birth, except get a back support and take tylenol. I don't think I've ever felt this sick without actually being sick!
so that's my bitching for the day. All in all, this pregnancy is going really well, but I'm sleep deprived and decided to take it out on the computer, rather than the people I care about.
And yes, I still think it's more than worth it.
-Leah
PS-don't tell me to feel better. if I could, I would.