[Could be a Song Lyric]

[fadshaka]

When I heard that you're getting married
My body reacted automatically
All my energy was drained
I couldn't think of anything
I just laid on my bed
Covered my body with thick blanket
And tried to forget everything about you.

I didn't cry
I wasn't sad
I just felt numb
And dumb
Coz even I knew that this time would come
Even I knew that you are not mine
And we're not meant to be
I was still not ready yet
I still deluded myself
I still denied
I still hoped
Stupid, isn't it?

"Maybe this is the answer," I whispered.
"Of my doubt about how to let you go."
Because it was only a week after I spilled out my doubt
Then God answered me with that news.

You avoid me
I distance myself from you
Nothing changes about that
But the truth is in the air
We'll never be the same
You have chosen
And I'm just here witnessing.

I made a mistake to ever hope
I can't look at you the same way again
Coz I never experienced any heartbroken before
You're the first
And I hope you're the last
I don't want to feel this anymore.

I know that this is the best way
I know that I'll be very happy for you in the end
I know that.

All I need
Is just time
To be able to
Wholeheartedly let you go
With smile
Without regret.

It's not me
Who will make you happy
Who will heal your scars
Who will hug you tight
Who will put a smile on your face
Who will walk with you
For the rest of your life.

It's not me, for you
It's not you, for me
And there'll never be "us".