*sigh*

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how could I be so stupid, so blind
to leave my mind in a time
where things felt right and secure
where things seemed good and I could believe
that there was a sanctity to love and friendship
how could I be so stupid
not to see the real me
would, as always, push and push
until you hate me for who I'm not
because I was so scared of what we were
so scared of her and her meddling ways
and knowing that for some reason you
were bound to choose her words over mine
time and time again
heart broken and on the floor
yet I still lust, still love, still yearn for you
I want you to the very core of my being
but as time progresses
you only widen the wound deeper
now I lay lost and broken, hollow
feeling alone though I surround myself with others
ruined.