oh my my my...
so, i just remembered that i have an lj. it's been so many years since i've been on this and it's honestly pretty heartbreaking to read all of these memories, and i only went back 6 posts. I'm just going to keep going as if I never stopped, a part of me thinks that this is pretty ridiculous while another part of me needs to get alot of things out because i can't really confide in anyone anymore, i really don't have any words to even start/explain/confide, whatever you call it. its amazing how life works. one minute you're spinning in confusion, feet off the ground, utterly disgusted, confused, then you take ten steps forward to take fifteen backwards. it's pretty amazing, i still haven't made any sense of it. i am working on moving forward right now, which is funny because i just looked up my old lj and tried to remember my password to myspace. i'm not sure, is it a healing process? do we go backwards to move forward? do we get "closure" to enable our slow walks? do we have to relive certain things to be able to live past them?