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[fadeddreams04]

Why do I attempt at life? Why do I try and make everyone happy when everyone is a taker? Is truly doing the right thing actually wrong? I do things to make people happy and when I do things to make myself happy I’m an asshole. I don’t try to hurt someone only to be the fucking asshole that I am. Fuck it fuck you and fuck everyone that doesn’t

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Re: WoW

[anonymous]

Thats funny actually...
every time we were on the fone togeather, did I or did I not ask you, how your day was, or what you were thinking or feeling? I did that every fucking day matt! I wanted so badly for things to work out. But they didnt. Becuase you found someone new and better. And thats OK!! I think when you say I never let you in, It was the other way around. You never let ME in matt. I came up to your dorm to bring you food, cuz you were in pain. I felt so bad that you were in pain and in the hospital. You have no idea. If thats not caring, then what is? Im so confused with you I swear. What is it that you need in life? cuz when you dont tell people, your never gonna get it... nothings ever just gonna fall in your lap again matt! I dont even know what to say to you... I dont know you anymore.. Im PIG HEADED? how? you complain in your livejournal about how unhappy you are, I just commented and said that I was sorry for you, I hope you find happiness, I really do! WHAT LINE WAS ABOUT ME??? I never did anything wrong, but care about you...I dont get you...
I hope you have a good life too, youll be happy again one day, I hope...
maybe ill see you... maybe not...

CENTRAL/WESTERN WEEKEND fuck yeaaaaah!!!
HaHa

tell me what I did wrong??!!

Re: WoW

[fadeddreams04]

Your commpletely missing the point. I don't tell people about what I feel on the inside but I pry and find out about everything I can about people and what they fear, love, hate and no one has ever done that with me. Thats what i'm talking about thats what my writing. If I say I'm fine I'm not. If I say i'm happy i'm usually not. what I"m talking about is the fact that no one cares to even pry. I will never just tell anyone. I give a lot and don't recieve anything back usually. And if someone likes me and I don't like them I'm an asshole because I don't want to date them? When I wanted to try and it just wasn't there? According to you that makes me an asshole. And when every girl is the same as that all they care about is them and how they feel and what I can do for them emotionally and physically and its never about me emotionally or physically because someone truely cares. And sometimes a girl likes me and I choose to not do things so I don't hurt them and I'm the asshole. So fuck it.

Re: WoW

[gigglgurl]

I'm beginning to understand what you are saying. I just dont know why it is so hard for you to find someone like that. Believe it or not matt, you taught me alot!!! I learned to not be afraid of who I am, I speak my mind alot more, Im a different person. Im not saying it was cuz of only you, but you did make me look at myself differently when I was with you. So your saying that there were no feelings there AT ALL? you never even liked me? Im confused!!! The reason I called you an asshole was because of the way you handled the situation. I came up to see you, you were in pain, Then you came home for a weekend, never saw me, I took that hint, but then you just dropped me from your life completely cuz you found something better!! that was low, N thats why I thought you were an asshole. If you just would have handled the situation differently, everything would be different right now! Im a very understanding person, No matter how much I want something, If the other person isnt in it 100% too, then whats the point in trying. YA KNO??!!! welp, I just wanted you to kno... N you can talk to me, I have alot to say, N ill listen to you, I told you id always be here for you... N I'm ready to do that now. when you say your fine, I want you to mean it! when you say your happy, I want you to mean it!! and that day will come, believe me babe... dont worry!!
XoXo
you can still call if you ever need someone to talk too!!