Bet it all and let it ride
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I came to a funny realization today: I have become so accustomed to things spinning out of control that it seems almost natural. Myself along with my friend matt are in the process of attempting to start our own company. I’m not sure if any of you have gone through the torrent of paperwork and legalities involved in such a thing, but if you have not I can sum it up thusly: imagine shoveling out a hole in the mud, every time you seem to make progress the mud slides back into the hole.
Unfortunately due to the nature of the beast im pretty much throwing everything I have into this company idea, so if it goes bad I will literally have nothing, no money, no fall back, nothing. Seems stupid and insane, but I have gotten so used to betting everything on a long shot that it really doesn’t bother me. And thats what bothers me. Shouldn’t I be considering this a bit more or holding back? The thing is I can’t find a reason to hold back. if it works, in a way I will be very happy, it would allow me to take my living from something that I enjoy (electronics and music) and eventually allow me a hands off income (the perks of owning a company, don’t have to go into the office everyday) allowing me to pursue whatever I want (researching and inventing things that are fun, and usually not useful).
Speaking of that, I found a very telling question that will let you know a bit about a person's personality: If one day you woke up and had nearly limitless wealth, what would be the first thing you spend it on for yourself? (ignoring giving to family, paying off debts ect ect, just the first thing you would do for yourself) the answer tends to tell you alot about a person, or at least the scope of their desires in life (ex: "I would buy a *insert name of ridiculously expensive car here*" = someone who takes alot of pride from their possessions/cars) Personally I would have to say I would use the money to support myself (food/lodging/gas) while I drifted around America (and eventually other places),wherever luck takes me, and picking up stories from the people I meet and the things I see. And more than likely use some of it to eventually buy a nice house (nice, not big) with a kick-ass gazebo to chill in.
Back to the topic at hand, even if the company folds and I pretty much have nothing left, I really don’t think that would bother me either. I don’t exactly have much now, so even if I were to lose it, it wouldn’t be a big deal for me. As of right now, I have enough money to afford some luxuries (cigarettes and an occasional frosty beer), a weak but existent social life, the disdain of my peers (Oh how I enjoy their hate! They study and work a fight tooth and nail for their A+ and I relax and slack off for my B, and they see that for all their fighting they only did a bit better, and in turn lost all form of social life for it. As a result, they tend to dislike me a great deal, until the smarter ones realize that all that studying is well and good but you need to live life too and join me on the slacker side of the class room, and most of them turn into friends and seem to be better off for letting up on the studies, its my own twisted way of helping them out), and my creative mind. Loss of the money means very little to me, loss of the social aspects would hurt alot but would be far from devastating, and if I lost my mind I get to go live in the happy house! (I doubt I will ever lose the hate of my peers, and I like that)
VERY long entry but thats what happens when i have alot on my mind.
SUMMARY: Not freaked out by something that should freak me out, which makes me kinda freak out. Also, your hate completes me. Thank you and good night.
I came to a funny realization today: I have become so accustomed to things spinning out of control that it seems almost natural. Myself along with my friend matt are in the process of attempting to start our own company. I’m not sure if any of you have gone through the torrent of paperwork and legalities involved in such a thing, but if you have not I can sum it up thusly: imagine shoveling out a hole in the mud, every time you seem to make progress the mud slides back into the hole.
Unfortunately due to the nature of the beast im pretty much throwing everything I have into this company idea, so if it goes bad I will literally have nothing, no money, no fall back, nothing. Seems stupid and insane, but I have gotten so used to betting everything on a long shot that it really doesn’t bother me. And thats what bothers me. Shouldn’t I be considering this a bit more or holding back? The thing is I can’t find a reason to hold back. if it works, in a way I will be very happy, it would allow me to take my living from something that I enjoy (electronics and music) and eventually allow me a hands off income (the perks of owning a company, don’t have to go into the office everyday) allowing me to pursue whatever I want (researching and inventing things that are fun, and usually not useful).
Speaking of that, I found a very telling question that will let you know a bit about a person's personality: If one day you woke up and had nearly limitless wealth, what would be the first thing you spend it on for yourself? (ignoring giving to family, paying off debts ect ect, just the first thing you would do for yourself) the answer tends to tell you alot about a person, or at least the scope of their desires in life (ex: "I would buy a *insert name of ridiculously expensive car here*" = someone who takes alot of pride from their possessions/cars) Personally I would have to say I would use the money to support myself (food/lodging/gas) while I drifted around America (and eventually other places),wherever luck takes me, and picking up stories from the people I meet and the things I see. And more than likely use some of it to eventually buy a nice house (nice, not big) with a kick-ass gazebo to chill in.
Back to the topic at hand, even if the company folds and I pretty much have nothing left, I really don’t think that would bother me either. I don’t exactly have much now, so even if I were to lose it, it wouldn’t be a big deal for me. As of right now, I have enough money to afford some luxuries (cigarettes and an occasional frosty beer), a weak but existent social life, the disdain of my peers (Oh how I enjoy their hate! They study and work a fight tooth and nail for their A+ and I relax and slack off for my B, and they see that for all their fighting they only did a bit better, and in turn lost all form of social life for it. As a result, they tend to dislike me a great deal, until the smarter ones realize that all that studying is well and good but you need to live life too and join me on the slacker side of the class room, and most of them turn into friends and seem to be better off for letting up on the studies, its my own twisted way of helping them out), and my creative mind. Loss of the money means very little to me, loss of the social aspects would hurt alot but would be far from devastating, and if I lost my mind I get to go live in the happy house! (I doubt I will ever lose the hate of my peers, and I like that)
VERY long entry but thats what happens when i have alot on my mind.
SUMMARY: Not freaked out by something that should freak me out, which makes me kinda freak out. Also, your hate completes me. Thank you and good night.