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hey all...
All I've got to say is that my eating is out of control. And I don't mean, over-eating. I haven't digested anything in 5 days, but when I got home from school a little while ago I ate a piece of toast and 1/2 a can of vegetable soup because I didn't want to start feeling awful tomorrow. I've lost 12 lbs since March ended. This is a good thing, but I know exactly where it's going and I don't want to be miserable with myself. Once this non-eating thing starts, it doesn't end for a long time. I've cried sometimes over it because I know it hurts other people so bad, but at the same time it's like I literally can not make myself eat. And despite the fact that what I ate today totals up to only about 200 calories, I feel that my belly has expanded to 8 times its normal size.
I'm just going to try not to think about any of this and ignore the stupid comments I get. I do not appreciate them, they make me feel violated.
(not coming from you guys, referring to people around here at school, etc.)
<3
PeaCe out, my peoplez<3
<3
All I've got to say is that my eating is out of control. And I don't mean, over-eating. I haven't digested anything in 5 days, but when I got home from school a little while ago I ate a piece of toast and 1/2 a can of vegetable soup because I didn't want to start feeling awful tomorrow. I've lost 12 lbs since March ended. This is a good thing, but I know exactly where it's going and I don't want to be miserable with myself. Once this non-eating thing starts, it doesn't end for a long time. I've cried sometimes over it because I know it hurts other people so bad, but at the same time it's like I literally can not make myself eat. And despite the fact that what I ate today totals up to only about 200 calories, I feel that my belly has expanded to 8 times its normal size.
I'm just going to try not to think about any of this and ignore the stupid comments I get. I do not appreciate them, they make me feel violated.
(not coming from you guys, referring to people around here at school, etc.)
<3
PeaCe out, my peoplez<3
<3