acceptance
ok, i admit it. my weirdass behavior: giddiness, anger, sadness, depression, mood swings, crying fits, yada yada is cuz i miss him. he is special, one of a kind, someone i depended on, and one of my best friends at penn...and all of a sudden, he just disappears. and for some reason, i thought it'd always be different. 我还是这么天真。i mean, we lasted through the end of the yr, through boys and girls, through summer, through fights/arguments...and then what happened? i don't know, it sucks to not know. so i didn't know that i was affected so much by him. but today, my friend told me that i've changed...i've become colder, more bitter, more cynical. and i hate it! i promised myself i won't let any guy make me like this. i guess it's inevitable, but at this point it's spinning out of control. so here i am, making a note to myself to get a grip on my emotions and my life. im going back to the basics, back to God, back to my faith, back to what my life is really all about. true, i strongly dislike boys. but if you come back one day, ill still be your friend. sometimes you need to trust your intuition. and through everything we've been through, i feel like it's all been worth it and you mean a lot to me. i believe that somewhere on the other side of the world, you still care and you'll always remember me. call me stupid, but there i've said it.