So you had a bad day
1. What time did you get up this morning?
11am I woke up. I have yet to get up
2. Diamonds or pearls?
Diamonds
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Monster in law
4. What is/are your favorite TV show(s)?
Grey's anatomy, CSI, NCIS, without a trace
5. What did you have for breakfast?
Breakfast? I haven't had breakfast. Coffee I guess
6. What is your middle name?
Which one?
7. What is your favorite cuisine?
Italian, Japanese, Asian, Mexican...I love most cuisines
8. What foods do you dislike?
brussel sprouts, turnips, parsnips...all the nasty veges, oh and I can't forget peas *shudder*
9. What is your favorite chip flavor?
Lime and cracked pepper or sour cream and sweet chilli
10. What is your favorite CD at the moment?
Gavin De Graw's CD, Rob Thomas' CD, Scissor Sisters, Faith Hill, Gwen Stefani...they are among favs.
11. What kind of car do you drive?
When I drive I use the bf's 4 WD
12. What is your favorite sandwich?
salad sandwich, especially chicken and capsicum
13. What characteristics do you despise?
ignorance, racism, arrogance, bias
14. Favorite item of clothing?
Probably my green jacket or leather jacket. I am also a sucker for black pants and t-shirts.
15. Where would you go if you could go anywhere in the world on vacation?
Hawaii
16. What color is your bathroom?
cream, but the boyfriend's is black marble.
17. Favorite brand of clothing?
Don't care too much about brands but I do love french kitty.
18. Where would you retire to?
Probably Torquay
19. What is your favorite time of day?
Night time. I am more awake then
20. What was your most memorable birthday?
Last year cause I got spoilt.
21. Where were you born?
Upper Hutt-Wellington-New Zealand
22. Favorite sport to watch?
AFL, hockey, tennis
23. What fabric detergent do you use?
Radiant
24. Coke or Pepsi?
Neither
25. Sign?
Capricorn
26. Ideal high temp for the day?
30 or higher
27. Favorite mixed drink?
lemon, lime and bitter
And for those of you who want to know what song was playing the year you were born: What song was #1 the day you were born?
Mine was Rod Stewart's "Tonight's the night" hahahaha.
I'm exhausted. I should be on my way to class right now but I am really, really exhausted.
I called my lecturer, and explained to him that I'm not 100%. I'm lucky enough to have lecturers that know I have anorexia, and help me out a little bit. He told me I can attend the morning tute tomorrow if I want to but either way he is going to put the notes up online too.
I woke up at 8am this morning and then fell asleep again until 11am. The boy took one look at me and told me to stay in bed until it was time to go to Uni.
But I decided to get up. I got up, had a shower, decided to walk into town and get red meat. I figured a juicy red steak would help boost my energy levels, got home and was absolutely trashed.
So ended up calling the lecturer, crawling back into bed and doing a little surfing. I'm going to write this entry, and then do my PR readings. I figure since I am pretty drained, I might as well at least catch up on my readings since I've got behind for my PR readings. That, and the assignment is due in 4 weeks and I've barely looked at it.
So at least I will get my readings done, and then I plan on doing the rest of my research file tonight.
I just need some time out first.
I got home this afternoon from walking to and from the shops and was literally in tears. I am so sick and tired of this. I'm sick and tired of not having any energy, and I know part of it is my own fault because I'm not eating enough. But it is frustrating. It's frustrating that going to the shops exhausts me.
It frustrates me that I can't go out and party like everyone else because I don't have the energy. That, there are days I can barely make it out of bed. Today was one of those days.
It feels like I'm not beating this. It feels like my anorexia is finally beginning to win.
And it terrifies me.
It's scary because if I can barely manage to get out of bed now how am I going to manage with a fulltime job?
I was asking S this, and he told me at least I have him to support me when we are married. He missed the point, although it was sweet of him to say that. But the point was I want to be able to work fulltime. I want to do something with my degree. I need to do something, or I'll go nuts and it will all be in vain.
Ugh.
I need to get my ass into gear and get better. One step at a time. That means no more skipping meals.
It means not pushing myself too hard. I do it all the time because I'm a perfectionist.
I don't have to be perfect, and that is the one thing I need to learn. I don't want to go to the gym one day and then be exhausted from it the next. I don't want to give the gym up, but it's getting to the point where I am wondering if I can even do it.
I'ms truggling with Uni as well. It's my final semester and I feel completely drained. I need to focus more, and I'm scared of failing my classes because I have so little energy, and it's a struggle to even get there let alone do the work sometimes.
I don't know...
Having said that I want to start on my PR readings. Get the ones I've missed done and then concentrate on the work that was set for homework. I'll feel better when I at least have that done.
Sweet dreams