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I hope my heart can take the breaking I am going to go through tomarrow...I hope i can stand it. Its going to be tuff. I can't belive everything has just gone by so fast. Its been a blur. Everything, it is just so crazy. I feel like everyone is leaving me...and worst of all my Best Friend and the one I love are leaving tomarrow...Meaning Tom. I cant take it. I dont want him to go. I know that in 3 weeks he will come back to pack and then move...but me and him are breaking up before he leaves tomarrow...It really hurts. I cant take it. I dont think i will feel this way for any one again for a long time...He was my first love and I dont think that will ever change...I will love him forever...as my Best Friend and as a Lover...He will be missed very much...I hope i will be ok. I know he prolly doesnt have this strong of feelings for me...tho he does say he will miss me and loves me too and wants to stay friends...i just dont know what damage this will do to ME...this i know sounds selfish and i have been pretty selfish lately....i dont know why. I dont want him to go. I dont want to see him leave me...Like so many in my life have before him...tho those i never really loved...I have fallen pretty far for this guy and i dont know if i will ever be the same again about it all...I hope he will be ok where ever he goes...and i hope he wont forget me...cuz i know i will NEVER forget him. I love him Dearly.
Beside that....I had an ok evening last night...Delia picked me up and we went to Mills park and hung out with Sam and Troy. I meet a guy that had Killed 3 times...it was fucking scary as hell and he gave me the chills when he pulled out a knife...He isnt in jail for it cuz he is a minor and if he does one more crime hes in jail for life...He already has a list of felonies and has done every drug pretty much and i dont know...this guy just scared me. He look kreepy too. He was ugly as fuck. Yea besides that Joel showed up and we chilled with him too...Me and Delia ran through spinklers it was fun...not. But yea Troy kept calling me a Freshman...it got old fast but i dont care. Joel hurt me head twice...by squeezing it really hard and punched me in the boobs...but that didnt hurt...haha then he squeezed Troys head and Troy went crazy man on him...and gave him a mega-weggie riping his boxers so Joel had to go the rest of the time...not that long...free ballin' it. It was funny...yea and he showed my and Kadie his balls cuz he took them out of his pants...whoo man...dint need to see that but whatever...It doesnt matter. Then at like 1030 we called Delia's mom and she came and picked us up. She droped Kadie off at her house cuz shes leaving for somewhere...cant remeber...and we headed home. Then Delia and I got online and made me a AIM BIT profile...its not done yet tho...so i wont put a link. We had to find a pic. of Edward ScissorHands..and i still dont like it but thats ok. Tim Burton is my favorite Director of all time...I love his movies soooooo much. I might be related to him i dont know...prolly am way down the line. tho. funny. and yea then she went in her room and i thought she wanted to be alone so i chilled on the computer watching NightMear Before Christmas...and I wanted to watch other movies like Beetlejuice but she didnt have them...o well. The i went to strangland.com ...there some pretty funny stuff on that site...sick but funny. Then i went to bed...i was tuckered out by 4 in the morn and passed out on Delias floor. Fun times...
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Beside that....I had an ok evening last night...Delia picked me up and we went to Mills park and hung out with Sam and Troy. I meet a guy that had Killed 3 times...it was fucking scary as hell and he gave me the chills when he pulled out a knife...He isnt in jail for it cuz he is a minor and if he does one more crime hes in jail for life...He already has a list of felonies and has done every drug pretty much and i dont know...this guy just scared me. He look kreepy too. He was ugly as fuck. Yea besides that Joel showed up and we chilled with him too...Me and Delia ran through spinklers it was fun...not. But yea Troy kept calling me a Freshman...it got old fast but i dont care. Joel hurt me head twice...by squeezing it really hard and punched me in the boobs...but that didnt hurt...haha then he squeezed Troys head and Troy went crazy man on him...and gave him a mega-weggie riping his boxers so Joel had to go the rest of the time...not that long...free ballin' it. It was funny...yea and he showed my and Kadie his balls cuz he took them out of his pants...whoo man...dint need to see that but whatever...It doesnt matter. Then at like 1030 we called Delia's mom and she came and picked us up. She droped Kadie off at her house cuz shes leaving for somewhere...cant remeber...and we headed home. Then Delia and I got online and made me a AIM BIT profile...its not done yet tho...so i wont put a link. We had to find a pic. of Edward ScissorHands..and i still dont like it but thats ok. Tim Burton is my favorite Director of all time...I love his movies soooooo much. I might be related to him i dont know...prolly am way down the line. tho. funny. and yea then she went in her room and i thought she wanted to be alone so i chilled on the computer watching NightMear Before Christmas...and I wanted to watch other movies like Beetlejuice but she didnt have them...o well. The i went to strangland.com ...there some pretty funny stuff on that site...sick but funny. Then i went to bed...i was tuckered out by 4 in the morn and passed out on Delias floor. Fun times...
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