A little better all the time

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I have to admit, from the week of Thanksgiving up until the first week of school, I was feeling really depressed. I didn't write it on here, but my grandma died Sunday before Thanksgiving, and the funeral was Wednesday. I think about her all the time still. I still cry because I miss her so much, and I was crying and missing her a lot the past few weeks. It still doesn't seem fair to me, and I'm still kinda mad about it. She was young! She battled breast cancer! She battled heart disease! And won! Then one day she fell in the yard. Was that God? Huh? My grandma was such a great lady. I know people only focus on the good qualities of people when they die, but I honestly only know good things about her. My mom's best friend said in her eulogy that "Strength and honor were her clothing... She opened her mouth with wisdom, or she didn't open it at all." Her words of wisdom still go through my head all of the time. She still helps me. But I still want HER HERE. It helped a lot to go see my grandpa for a few days before school started. It was comforting to know that he's doing fine. The whole town of Wisner is taking care of him, so he's in good hands. He's constantly telling me not to worry about him, so I won't anymore.

In other news, I'm working on becoming a productive member of society again. That's helping the feelings depression and loneliness. I'm going to bed early, and waking up early. It feels really good! I HAVE to do better in school this semester. I need to play less. So if you want to study with me, not play, call me. Unless it's a Saturday. Then we'll play.

I love:
Big Head Todd and the Monsters
Blues Traveler
Marystasia Evans
Jazz
Mackenzie Finley